Throwing out the Frustrations

Sometimes we really lose control from our mind, our consciousness.

This happens to me also but basically I don't try to throw out the anger on someone else or make any victim of my frustrations.

Can't remember many things, this is my problem. Or it might happen that my thoughts are not organized this can also happen.

Sometimes things or moments or a person's words really pierce our heart and we are not able to control our mind. Some of the moments we even don't want to control ourselves. We really want to let things flow out of our body in any way like anger, anxiety, frustrations, being mad, etc.

There are so many thoughts which enter in my head, some are positive and some are really negative. Sometimes I really get scared and few times I gain my confidence.

If there are number of opportunities then we start to think that which one will be the fruitful one and has a future in it. I wanted to create opportunities of my own. Its not my ego but my enthusiasm and this is how I truly define achievements.

The taste of success can only be delicious if a person has traveled a long path and with lots of ups and downs. Its not the ultimate result which matters, but all the while how we lived, how we walked on the path matters as at the end every one has to die, so don't live to die.

Now talking about my life, I am trying hard to do my own crazy work at home to create a business, but there is so much time constrain from the job which I am doing, that it really doesn't gives time to me to think of any other things.

Family Interactions
Friends Interactions
Social Interactions

These are like completely vanishing from me. I am not an isolated person, nor I want to be.

I go to the office where I do job, then I come back home and sit in my office and try to run my business.

That's all what I doing all day. I don't get much time from my job that's why I give all my left over hours in my business, and thus all the other stuffs which I should do like spend time with family, friends and the society, doesn't happen.

Ewaystores - Part 1

Ewaystores the name which ignites the mind now-a-days as because we are trying to focus on generating a start-up out of this idea. The first thought which comes in my head regarding this start-up is how can I help others to do business in a more effective way.

I have never seen any person who are young, fresh minded and studying in college, filled up with lots of energies and is having a thought of doing business. I may be wrong, why any student will want to do a business as because basically businesses are run by the experience people and aged one who have grey hairs.

My thesis can be proven wrong very easily as because there are many people (out of India) who are very young and had became multimillionaire.

In India, no such scope I guess. the question which I keep asking myself is that what does it take to start or run a business. On of the simple answer which can be thought is that when a person decides to provide a product or a service, then he/she may opt to start a new business.

India is the biggest consumer but the stuff we consume are basically not made in India. This is one of the opportunity which people of India are not looking at.

One need to understand what consumers need is. Once a person get an idea of it, then a new business can be thought.

Non Deterministic Path

I was so much good in coding when I was in my college. Came out of the college, joined a company doing a Testing job. Whole potential was wasted. Can't solve a simple problem even now after 6 months. 

Leaving that testing job, and joining another company. But the boss of the new company was persuaded by my skills which I displayed that was again the testing one. 

Don't know where to go what to do ?

I have a thought to become an entrepreneur, but what I dislike about the testing is the boring manual checking which I have to perform. It brings yawn on my face.

In a start-up company like IT products,

Coding

 Database

 Documents

 Testing

 Managing

 Marketing

There are lots of things to be done.

When there are lots of ideas and you have to decide which one you want to do and which one would be profitable then you are seriously unsure what to do and which one you are going to choose. 

I don't know whether the start up idea which I am trying to pursue will be fruitful or will really solve the persisting problem in India or not. But where is my thought is all about. 

Some times I want to move on to Education field and sometimes Health and then came the start-up idea to help support the Businesses.

Already there is an application ready to serve the small and medium shops to manage their stocks and crease their sales, but then there is a giant company online sales like flip-kart and amazon, who are going to provide sales in such a way that they will wash off the whole small and medium shops

But wait they need items to sell.

People who produce, make or create products, they just need an extra person to deliver their stuffs to the consumers.

I don't know, whom are we going to fight with but whether this path like helping the SMEs will be a nice idea or not ?

Wait why I am judging the path according to the revenue which it will give me. Why not do something which I like, which we like to do. For which we are passionate to do.

Choose: Education, Health, Ewaystores.

Unwanted Moments of Life

Lots of fragility is inside me. Some time we really need a person with whom we can share everything and expect a decent suggestion from them.

Friends are getting jobs are MNC, I never wanted to work on such platform as because I know I am very mean, once I have a secure job I will stop finding ways to grow and cultivate myself.

But the problem which has occurred that I have started measuring myself according to the money which I am earning.

Every morning I am very unsatisfied with the life which I am living. Don't know where my smile has been lost. Seriously don't like to live to feel fun or joy.

When I was in college my thought was like an free bird, I dream to be an Entrepreneur. To make a product and do business. I will love doing so and earning money from that way was the dream moment of my life as I would be doing something which I love and also sustaining myself with the amount of money which I am earning.

But look at this moment, what had gone wrong is that at this moment I formed a firm with one of my friend and then saw that I am really into this service based company like outsourcing and all the stuff which is being done by all the company near by or in India. I am not becoming very hopeless that where I have come to, I seriously didn't wanted to be this.

I dreamed of a company which would be product based. Now at last from the last week I am planning to make a such business model but that is too scary its like an e-commerce site which is already available on the web in a huge amount.

Should we transform it into an api so that any one can get it or use it from our site. In this way B2B and B2C. Don't know what will happen but I think untill and unless I don't try it out I will not understand what was the right idea.

4 months in the Job, Started Feeling Nothing

Where am I standing, what to do and why I am living like this?

Questions after questions, can't search any answer.

I am in this professional world since 4 months. Right now I am completely surprised by the experience which I am facing past few days. Fear of being cheated from a professional partner. No such projects in hand, hard to find the hopes of surviving in the future as marketing is not so easy part and due to which bringing project in our hands is really tough to do.

I am already doing a job in a company. While joining I was so much enthusiastic and filled up with energies but now I fill like seriously I am not worthy for a job at this moment. I don't have any skill. When I was in my college I use to sit with my laptop and make any possible application which I didn't have imagine that I will be able to create. I was a master developer at that age though compared to professional I am not so good like them but though at such age I was pretty good enough to make something, but look at me now, I have lost my enthuse, my confidence, the possibilities which I can reach with my ability, all these has been lost from my head. I have started to believe that I am not good and can't be even.

From Developer to Tester, I don't know what I have lost in the mid way, and even I can't compare that where the gain is bigger than my loss or not. I really need to decide something, that what I should do? which path I should choose to walk on.

I am not getting time for myself, each day I am busy with some work or something which I really can't do, but trying hard to concentrate on it.
Where the hell is my concentration ?
I am dividing myself, my life, my time in more than 3 paths and ultimately gaining nothing out of it.

I think I was looking at the money which I am earning. The thought that suppressed me was that at this age of my life, my friends (colleagues) are earning 20,000 per month and me? just 10,000 that also with 2000 rupees per month traveling expenses. Ultimately I am losing the self respect due to which the desire to live is diminishing.

Floating ideas for startups

All the way in life we think of a lot of ideas, basically these are the ideas which are kind of a solution to a problem which we are facing or a community/society is facing.
Previously there was no such acceptance of these innovative solutions but with the advancement of information age we have seen a lot of examples where people came up with an idea and started implementing it. As a result few failed but the ones who had dedication and determination, they survived and made their dreams real.
Some such solutions are:

1. online service centers

2. online take a lift and pay (online hitchhiker)

I am writing these two idea as because this may help me in my future when  I would be recalling my ideas from my journal or blogs. :)

Fear of Cross-Roads

Basically there are two ways (minimum) after any decision we take like which way to choose. 
Prior to all these one has to collate down to a decision which way to choose? 
In doing so one will simply analyze a lot compare the options or situations after taking the decision and then
come to a final decision. Its really hard to decide what to do or what not to.

Cause to all of these above thoughts is just one, we fear to face difficulties. We fear to pass through difficult paths.
We fear from the bad times.
No one want to taste bad moments, and why will any one wish such, if he or she does then Psychology can be blamed ;)

I am doing a job which is hard for me or might be not meant for me, but still cant leave it and start the journey which I dream of, why? because I have a fear that if the other choice will be more bitter and unproductive then? what am I going to do? find a new job or try something else?

What will be there to back me up?

The choice to an undesirable path

In the beginning of a journey it really feels like so much energy and enthusiasm. We start walking with new hopes and discovering new possibilities in our life. It is same in all perspective like in a relationship or in a job.

"A man who is good in school will not perform well in his office" said by one of the motivator who was delivering a speech on being corporate. These lines can be implemented on me too as because I was not so good in my school or college. I use to bunk a lot of classes in my college days and at one point I seriously stopped visiting ;) there. I use to sit at home and work on my laptop I learn that world has gone open and had started to release documentations and tutorials openly on internet. Later the most wonderful thing which I saw was the sudden increase in video tutorials which seriously helped a lot to learn at negligible cost that is internet connectivity cost.

Suddenly then the college was over and I was got a new job. Previously when I use to stay at my home for skipping college, I use to develop application using different languages. I had a magic in my hand, any language I could learn in a week and develop a basic application by second week.

Now, when I have joined a company where I was appointed as a Tester, the first month was so exciting. But with time things started to change, I discovered that I cant test an application so well as I can develop it. Though with time I kept on dragging myself and trying as much I can.

I have always worked when I use to be at my home. There working was pretty different. I use to walk and thing, write a lot on copy or a white board. My comfort-ability was my creativity.
Here at jobs I have to sit in front of a PC on a chair for 10 hours. My productivity have became so obsolete and how I have transform from such a versatile mind to a non excited mentality just for 2 reason, the money which I earn in my job and second to tell others that yes I am employed. I fear to say others that I am sitting at my home to make the product or service for upcoming future because this is not the mentality of the citizens in the country where I live in.

Don't have much to speak, but truly speaking I know I am destroying my quality, it has been 3 months in my job and I have transformed so much that I really never wished to as this transformation was undesirable and this was not what I wanted to or even wished to. We are born as rebellion, I cant just sit idle on this chair and let me rotten in this way. I know this path was chosen by me which had led me to a path which was not for me at any cost so I need to save myself. I will find out a way and once I have, I will just sprint out of this undesirable path.

Why departments!!!

It has been a month since I have joined a new job here at my native place. The pay is adequate for the moment, but I don't know whether the amount will effect me latter or not, as because humans  have made money as the necessary evil which is going to ride the vehicle of their life. Hence even I am bound to have desires for money.

Ahhhh, well recently from my job I have learn something very important and would love to share.

An organization is divided into many different segments which we call as departments. The thing is that these departments are mutually exclusive with each other. Their collective work result into the complete output of a whole organization.

Just talking about the efficiency of the organization, one has to consider that each and every department is giving its best to complete their part of work.

Now, gradually when we reduce the size of the organization a whole department may comprise of only one person (i.e. a single person may represent a department) then we start to get concerned about others work and if we have a good heart then we may even indulge with him/her to make his work done as fast as possible. If any person or any department start taking care of any other department then there may be chances that the helper department may lose concentration on its own work thus reducing the quality of their piece of work.

This may become a cause why a product or the project which is under development may receive a flaw in it, though the departments can't be blamed as they are good in their work but still these kind of errors may occur inside a middle scale or a small scale organization.

Corporate Irritation & Fragility

Sometimes when we are sitting in front of our computer and working for a while, we really want to see thing which are easy to understand and recall anything related to any stuff, it might be a word or a topic or even a project.

Thing is on the first day of my job I learn something from my boss, he said that we should be organized. Yes, sure. That day I decided that I will be organized as much as possible.

First week, when I was working with my colleagues, I got a glance of their computers and saw how unorganized their file structures are!! Even their desktop was filled with icons of folders, documents, applications, etc. I thought how unorganized they are!! My boss should have also said the same thing to them that 'to be organized' on their first day, but still how can they be so disorganized ??

-- will add more in this post

Managing - being organized

The place where I do stay it was not so economically sound few years back but with advancement of time the place got modernized and the population increased rapidly. Many schools were opened near by and value of that area really increased. The only thing which remained same was the roads, it never increased in size. As a result every morning at 8 there is a huge traffic as because students are being brought to the schools by cars, buses and bikes.
How government tried to solve this huge traffic is by simply placing more numbers of police there. This was the solution brought down from managing authorities of the government.

Now, all these which you just read now had no connection with what I really want to say. Actually today in the morning my partner said that a website development company claims that they can build any kind of site in just 7 days. Well very impressive.

I really though about this and compared the work flow in the company where I work currently. Here any project takes minimum 2 months to complete. Then I got the idea that how can one possibly say such sentence regarding completing of a website project in just 7 days.

I basically do project management when working on any project. I really try to learn and new methodologies so that development team may complete the project on time and with quality. I read many ways and try to implement those and test it to come up with new ways of project development.

--Still learning, but yes I can't really complete any kind of website in just 7 days.

Employee Entrepreneur

Working as a 9-5 full time employee and trying hard to start a new business/venture alongside, then you will need:-

1. Commitment: Working for yourself, your venture with a thought that it may replace your job or bring in a steady flow of revenue then; "Ask yourself that whether your passion for the new business venture is strong enough to surpass the frustrations and struggles of working all hours of days and night?"

2. Stay Organized: one has to work more hard to stay on top of everything when managing a full time job and a side business.

3. Prioritize: this is the only way to finish the task within deadline.

4. Constantly assess: while growing a business one is likely to try new projects and partnerships that may or may not work. To succeed you need to be in a constant evaluation mode.

5. Start small: If you aim too high and set unrealistic goals, you will likely find yourself discouraged and frustrated with your progress, or lack thereof. Balancing a side venture and a 9-5 full time job is tough; hence it is important to cut yourself a slack when creating objectives for your entrepreneurial venture. Celebrate each small success and recognize that each step leads you closer to long-term success.

6. Be Resourceful: When you are trying to run a business, you have to keep a record of a lot of details on your own. However if you are also working full time then it is not realistic to think that you can do everything of your own, especially if you don’t have the skills for the goals need to accomplish. Either partner with someone or hire someone.

Proactively build a network of trusted resources that you can rely on from time to time to keep your business' momentum going. For example, seek out a recent college graduate looking for experience to handle the day-to-day administrative work and gain real-life job experience.

7. Be Patient: small business takes time to be profitable. Make slow progress, as opposed to turning points and seeing business boom right away.          

8. Accept failure and criticism in stride: Don’t be discouraged when something doesn’t work out. Every mistake is an opportunity to learn how to do better next time.

9. Don’t forget to recharge: To start your own business you have to accept a workaholic lifestyle, but don’t forget to maintain a little balance in your life. Sometimes, you'll get inspiration or ideas in the least likely places. Don't underestimate how much keeping up with your day-to-day social engagements and routines may help you succeed.

New Experiences

Well I was not so much aware that where can my company (http://www.coginnotech.com/) go actually but still kept very few amount of hope from inside that any how will try hard to hustle to survive and do a small amount of business in this market. We didn't have any contacts nor any good will in the market but still we are into this trying our best to work and earn.

Today was one of the unexpected days of my life. Some days when we learn something which is really valuable to us then we basically recall all those moments at night so that we can refresh our memory and don't forget those easily.

Previously the warm love was basically very important to me but now the most important thing is my passion. I have a desire to live the way I want to i.e. to reach the destination (where everyone will reach one day i.e. death) by taking those paths which I want to travel. I don't want to live like simply floating on the boat of life, I want to live like crossing the river as a journey which I have to cross by swimming across it, facing all the waves and tearing all the storms, want to have an experience which I cannot even imagine. I don't know that whether that experience will be the bitter one or sweeter one, it’s just our mind set, our view point and nothing else.

+Anup is trying hard to make things possible in the company. Stretching the legs to reach out to at least one single customer. It is his capabilities that today we actually got one customer :) well I am not considering how much big or small the project is, but actually I am destined and passionate to provide a service which will not just be liked by our customer but he should love our work. We have found the element which is the key success of any company, that is at the very end the customer's satisfaction is the ultimate goal.

If we can only satisfy their needs and requirements through our services then obviously they are going to pay us happily, which actually happened today. This is what the lesson which I have learned, that its to get the opportunity of any project or sale it is not the brand name actually (yes it may matter at the first step) but latter on it is the behavior of an organization towards their customer.

Moreover I am not only trying to provide services to our customers but in fact in our heart it is, we want to add value to their business that means we have a mindset that whom so ever we are going to provide service to, we will support them and help them to make more profits from our services (basically they will be applications most of the time). Help them to expand and organize their business proficiently.

Seriously living life and feeling it too. Thank you to him who really deserves it :)

Trying all possible ways to sustain

Well after so many days I am writing again.. my post are haphazard, having no proper structure or flow. The reason is my life is also not so well organized. I am flowing as the way time is making me to. I tried so many things. created company persuaded people joined a job. don't know absolutely what to do, why i am doing and how i m going to live..
I know this much that I wanna live a life in a way that at the end there shouldn't be any regret. I don't wanna waste my time and my life.
Well here is something from my memory docs

On 15^th of June 2013, I and my friend had finally decided to form a firm and work together to bring projects and try to complete them and deliver it on time. We were highly enthusiastic and willing to do a lot and face all the hurdles to overcome the bridge of earning. We went to our 1^st client and had a talk with him very confidently. Someplace we might have become nervous but with time the weakness was defeated by the courage of our heart and we turned up to very normal while talking to him. Though his requirements were huge and were crossing our capabilities but we remain calm as because in past we have already touched some lines which were out of our reach and just because of necessity we had to cross our limits to learn more and develop our skills to accomplish something really difficult. Any way after listening to him we at last said the cost for developing his project. We tried to be very comfortable while talking so that he may feel good.
This was the first day when I learnt how to talk to customer and most importantly at those situation when we have to persuade the customer to pay, these situation are highly different from normal talks with people.

Okay the first day was over and then I was back to my track, the normal way of life. Next day I had to visit another customer who had quiet minimum requirements and thus we were confident as we had been through this situation once. Now this time we were one time experience professionals and talk very formally. But this customer didn't pay that much amount of attention to us. We were not able to grab his attention as I think so or more perfectly we can say that he was no so interested in building up the website. Any way we talked to him and everything went fine.

After two days me and my friend Rishav planned together and went to his school to have a talk with them. Our motto was to persuade them to build their own website and hence we may get some bucks flowing towards us. Though it may be plenty but it may bring showers of strength to us and rotate the wheel of our business initially. But unfortunately we were not so successful to accomplish what we planned for. Rather our meeting with the principal of that school turned out to be a bit improper and I have figured out there reply, which was definitely NO. They actually didn't say like that, or else we would have been insulted then but we were lucky as they replied ‘give me the pamphlet we would inform you if required’ and we left.

We met 3 clients in a week and we were really happy as we started well. We were filled with confidence and enthusiasm. Then after few days we were sandwiched with the hectic responsibilities which we had taken over our head. One was Artwork-4all and second was Security courses, both of these responsibilities took a hell lot of energies from us and we had no energy in us to give time to our newly formed firm. Along with these, we also made a hater which was Softwebs.co.in. It was easily perceptible that he didn't like our idea of forming a company who would operate and provide services in the same field as theirs; this made us the competitor of each other. Let this hatred go to hell, we should focus on our work and business, we are not going to hate any one or be jealous of any person or company. This is not in our nature. So purely think and concentrate on our aims and 100% flawless devotion on our own company.

After all these days I figured out that the difficulty is not crossing the bridge of earning, it’s actually taking the first step to get a project which may bring cash in the firm. The initial steps are really very hard and difficult to cross.

Today is 2^nd July, I went for an interview at Salt Lake which was the second round and disappointingly it was not so good. What so ever it was a 10k salary job, I don’t know whether I will get selected or not. I was not so much comfortable while the interview. Some where I realized that I can’t be good in technical interview. So was I made for MBA or Engineering? WAIT!!! What if these two courses were not designed yet then? What should you say that what are your skills??

A glimpse of yesterday

I use to think that I am a responsible human who can take up responsibilities on his own shoulders and make things happen. Unfortunately I was wrong, I was in an illusion which had led me to think this, sometimes I use to think myself to be a person who is an Entrepreneur, a person who is full of energies and motivation, a person who believe in himself and tries to do something really worthy. I was day dreaming about myself. 

My subjective world

Every person have worries in their mind and in their heart, I have too. I don't call them burden because they all the the portion of my thoughts which I think in a whole day.

Artwork-4all : recently Vishal's dad has asked me and anup that if we all shake hands with each other so that we may help to generate the revenue from the site then it is a good idea for us. We all can work together and if any sort of income starts generating then it will be divided as per the percentage.

Uncertain Investment of my TIME

Me and Anup, we both had been working on this Health Care website and there has been a lot of changes in it since the time we started working on it. The database design has been changed two times and the look and feel of the websites has been changed vastly. We have been giving our asses to this project and working from three months. Data are about to come and then we have to feed it to the website and soon the website is going to live in this month (it is April 2013). Man we have been working out ass out and I should really appreciate Anup as because he was the man who worked really hard and most of the credit goes to him. We both are working on two projects sequentially and giving our days and nights to it, not the night we do sleep ;-) . Now the thing which I want to say is that though we are working so hard but we have not been rewarded for any of these neither verbally nor in money terms. Frankly speaking I am loosing my faith from this Hospital Care website. I really don't know that whether it is really going to earn money or not. Whether people are going to come and visit our website or not I really don't know. What if we don't get any return and the whole project get demised  I will really feel bad about it and loose a bit of my heart.

Distributed Lives

As early in the morning I was talking about human trafficking (I mean where most of the human's attentions are taking place) is happening, that is the exact place to earn the profits, for an example the Facebook. Few days back from today I observed something happening on the Facebook, the incident was something like this, there was a photo of a cute baby girl which was really very sweet, it was uploaded 8 seconds ago and within that fraction of seconds the photo has acquired 46 numbers of likes. It was unbelieveable for me that how such type of trafiic can be generated but it is the reality, people are moving towards online, most of the people are getting online and thus facebook has such a numbers of active users. This trafficking of human being on internet is making the internet one of the valeable element of our life.

How facebook is getting so much users? Right now I am in a flat where college students live and most of the time they are free as because they know studying can be done one day before the exam and actually we all now follow this rule only, hence we get a lot of time during semesters. This whole amount of time need to be passed anyhow. Facebook is one of the free option to them.

Now every one is trying to create a website so that the 225 billion dollar money which has been earned by Bill Gates can be earn by other peoples too. It was his age where software were very important thats why Microsoft the company who use to make softwares and people use to buy them. Now this softwares Microsoft a multi billionair, as because till now the most important thing in the world of technology was the softwares but now as we all know the technology is seeing an advancement which is Cloud Computing is the most vital newly emerging trend which is replacing the softwares very rapidly. The whole market depend on this technology, take PAAS, SAAS, AAAS. If an enterprise is taking the help of any of these technologies then they are surely going to earn millions sometimes billions.

We have to calculate that how much users are going to use an application which is running on the cloud. If it is on the internet that means any one can use it, every people on this planet can use it, though the population of the earth is 7 billion but all of them are not connected to internet, taking Facebook as an example there are 1 billion active users in it, hence they all can access the internet. We are now talking about the market where 1 billion people are actively paying attention. Who needs all of them. If a page is getting 1 million hits per day that means there is really something on that page.

Mesmerized Day

It's 3:00 PM and I have been doing nothing since morning (which means I was not utilizing my time) except thinking some stuffs. Let me clear out my head and write some of my thoughts..

1. What if I am going to die soon ?

2. I really need to do something like make a startup...!!

3. Will I be able to form a nice legacy in my life? Will I be able to help people and contribute to mankind ?

4. How should I utilize my time in a perfect manner so that my future would be good !!

I really need to elaborate each of these points or else there might be some untold or undiscovered thoughts which will keep on poking my head all the time.

What if I am going to die soon lets say within 1 years.. Ohhh myyyy GOD!!! I would really panic, oh yes I will but why?? It's because I don't want to die, I want to live on this earth, but if this would be true that I am going to die soon, I would really regret about something that though I lived so many years but I was not able to satisfy my soul, was not able to fulfil the purpose of my life. I was not able to give a reason to myself so that while dying I might be happy and would love to leave this world, would say goodbye to everyone happily.

I really need to do something like a startup... Yes I really want to be an Entrepreneur, I want to feel every moment of a rising company right from the day of its formation. For me a company or an enterprise is like a life which take a birth one day and slowly and steadily grows up. I really want to be a person who

"Many times the value of a sentence is not measured by its grammar but by its meaning."

from Ideas to Startup

Many kids have a dream in their childhood days that they want to be something when they are grown up. They dream something or anything without any hesitance. We on looking at their dreams ( if the dreams are not possible according to us) then we simply tell that they don't know the real world that's why they can dream like this. Later when the time goes on when we become old and they are young then the real game changers are those kids who had dreams in their eyes and had the courage to fulfill it.

We the grown up don't see that according to the time the whole world is changing but we are not realizing it. Then who are the ones who can feel it? The change!!! Some one might be feeling it, Who are they? why aren't we in that category? We keep on asking to ourselves that why we are not the Game changers, the one who are really changing the world.

Human race has seen a lot of ages (Iron age, Information age, etc). We all are changing with time, but recently there had been a lot of change in this world. Things have became very advanced and technology had became the real hero (power also). Now answering the question that who are the game changers? the answer can be simply figured out which is, the person who are really taking part in these changes, the person who are trying to change something are going to become the game changers. Let stretch up ourselves and conclude that who are these game changers, basically they are the Entrepreneurs.

Lost in 'SEARCHing'

SEARCHing ?? What... Yeah I am going to pass out from my college... Now what? Earning money is the first priority.. I have wasted my 4 years in studying and gained nothing from my college.. Absolutely nothing except not to harass or throw your frustrations over someone else, because I have been the victim for may people's ugly part or their frustrations..

EDUCATION for me is about to end.. let that go in my mind's trash can. I have no intention to recall all these memories ever.. I am gonna do something to make things better and make others life better even. I really want to contribute to this human race.. Make our native earth a better place to live, love, prosper. Oh common Vikrant stop giving a speech.. Every one in this world have this desire in their heart but no one does it, no one has time for it even. But still I will try to help others, help society and communities.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. come back to the topic for which this post should be. So you were at the word 'SEARCHing', hmmmmmmmm interesting.. Why I wrote this ( obviously there is a reason)
What I am doing right now is filling up forms at job searching websites so that I may get a call from somewhere for an interview.. I have been doing this for say 6 or 7 months.. not all the time but at intervals for  a continuous time.. There are so many websites like letsintern, twenty19, timesjob, naukri.com, monster.com, shine.com, firstnaukri, and the list goes on... I have been to each and every website and filled the entire bio data individually... Ohhhh mother of god, I am tired. I have applied for so many jobs but never received a message even. Nothing has happened ever, are the recruiters even looking at these websites????

I am lost, I am really lost in Searching... I have lost a lot of time in doing this (filling up bios). If I would have worked so many hours on any project in spite of filling up bio data I would have gained a huge experience which I think is the most valuable thing a working person can have, but I can't because I haven't got any opportunity to become a working person in any company.

I want to... still trying hard to not to waste time in doing nothing and focusing on stuffs which may secure my future for a little bit of time (because after some time I will learn how to secure yourself). Though I give a check every night that have I wasted my day today? Or had learnt something new? Or even utilized my time. Most of the day I really get an answer, YES.

Learn from yourself

There is something amazing in every ones life. I had my own. I wished to become something as everyone has a dream, so what's wrong if I have my own??
I wanted to be someone, I wanted to be a person who creates value in the human race, help people and respect all; when I was in class 9 I had heard about Bill Gates. I was popular in my class for my computer skills and they use to call me that I would be a Computer/Software Engineer someday; and today I am at the end of my Engineering degree but what is the value of this Engineering course which I am about to complete ??? It didn't make me any sort of valuable person; there are more than lakhs of Engineer out there in society who had completed this degree and are still jobless. I am not blaming them, the thing which is wrong, which I did figure out in this 4 years of course is that whatever we learn in this course those are merely ever used by us in our life and most importantly this course are immensely theoretical. From a student's point of view, they dreamt of getting a job in last year and put their entire focus on it in spite of thinking to innovate something new, to be creative.

 I am telling the truth, studying in this pattern won't provide you anything!!! Colleges and the Academics don't  really teach you, it's your passion which if you follow will lead you to some path specifically some learning path which you would like to learn without thinking about the examination or the marks...  Even though if that learning is not in your academics but as you are following your passion you are definitely going to learn something very valuable, you will have a unique quality in you which may differentiate you from others but if you suppress your passions and do what others are doing and compete them in these silly academics then in your last year of college life, you may end up saying that it's the end of my education phase and I have come so far but till now I am really not aware what quality do I have in me?

You won't be able to find yourself if you are going to follow paths which are made by others;

Okay now let us stretch our legs and talk comfortably, we know that everyone is saying things are going to be tough and one has to struggle a lot to survive in this planet mentally and financially. We should understand that no matter what ever the past was, from the statistics it can't exactly predict the future. That's why one can guess but cannot imagine what would be our tomorrow?

To get an answer about your own fate, you have to ask yourself. No one knows your life more than you, you know yourself completely. You know how strong you are or how weak you are, you simply have to accept it and change yourself (kind of upgrading yourself). If you feel that you are a bit fearful at certain situation which is really hard for you to face, then don't try to run from your own thoughts or fake yourself, try to accept it and change it that's what the most important step one has to take to live and survive in his/her fate..

Moving Forward

Yeah, last post was on Feb 7th.. Such a long time I haven't populated my blog with any of my views...

I was thriving for getting a JOB and in Feb I do get it on 20th. I was stable and happy that at least I got a job, it really makes you feel calm. Right now there are 2 projects in my hand, one the Health Care one and the other is my own 4th year project.

Me and Anup had been working hard to make this Health Care website very easy and comfortable to use. I hope we may touch up the market very fast and create a real value for our customers in Health related field. The site will be live soon by the mid of this month i.e. April, 2013.

We are also working on our 4th year project which we are planning to complete it by the end of this month.

Glimpse...

This journey is a bit tough, knowing that if you fail then you will personally lose something. Every day we lose our strength, every day we gain it. Things are really a bit different. Watching companies filtering the engineering students as per their needs was like an insult to the education system. Moreover students were blaming that they are not capable of getting a job. Why all of them have this perception?
I don't know, might be basically one should think the same what everyone thought.

I saw the the slamming of creativity from 1000 of students' brains.

Bitter Truth

After 2 months, kind of realization period, I have learned that how we can demise our enthusiasm, suppress our creativity.

My college is still on and campusing is going on, but I am very nervous because I am scared that I won't be able to clear the aptitude exam in any way. Every college has their own campusing at their college, but our college is a group of colleges that means it will not provide campusing only to one college at once but will include all the colleges all together. There are thousands of students coming to sit for the campusing and only 20 to 40 are selected. In my life I won't be able to see an on campusing because that will never happen.

I don't know whom to blame for this, 1000000 rupees was wasted in this college just to take admission so that I may study in a renowned college and learn more than others do. How good was this college I really don't want to say. I had the worst experience of professional college life. Talking about personal life, it's really very calm, I LOVE IT like I don't know like what and how much... I know what I feel.

Okay one of my friends got a job in a company, I am also trying to study the quantitative aptitude and verbal ability so that I may clear the 1st round of any campusing.

GOD please help me, I really need you in my head and heart.

Why Entrepreneurship is the way to go?

This article is written by someone else... I have simply copy pasted it here


This is a question which (if not anyone) my parents continue to ask me till date – why Entrepreneurship and not a secure job? After years of avoiding the ‘dreaded topic’, today I decided to give it a shot and give them a satisfactory answer to their questions about their son’s doubtful future. Here is a transcript of what transpired.
(My Cell Phone rings, I pick it up.)
Me: Hi, how are you doing, Mr. Client?
Mr. Client: Hey, I called to inform you that the payment that is due tomorrow will be sent to you within the next week. I apologize for the delay but there has been a slight issue.
Me: It’s fine, it’s part of business but make sure you pay it up by the next weekend or I am afraid I might not be able to provide uninterrupted services this month.
Mr Client: Sure, I will send it before the next weekend. Take Care. Bye.
(My Dad hears this conversation and is giving me a stare that I recognize and christened as “The Undertaker Stare” for its uncanny resemblance to the original and its ability to make me feel uncomfortable under my skin, although it is mixed with a look of pity)
Me: (Acting Innocent) Well, looks like our shopping plan will have to wait a week.
Mom: (Grumbling) Why do you want to go through this? Get a job, there are a lot of people who would give you a job. At least, you get a paycheck every month on time. I and your dad are tired of seeing you struggle for payments.
Me: Mom, please, not again. It’s a matter of just 3-4 days. I will get other payments too, next week… promise.
Dad: Don’t avoid your mom’s question. Why don’t you join a job?
Me: Dad, one thing is clear to me. No matter what rung of the ladder you are on, jobs are going out of style.  Fast.
Dad: So says the guy who has worked in a job for a month or two.
Me: I understand your concern, but look at it this way. Once upon a time, the world was full of small business people and independent entrepreneurs.  Every town was bound to have a baker, a blacksmith, a preacher, a barber,  a shepherd, a farmer, a weaver, and a shoe maker.  There were all Entrepreneurs not factories or corporations and maybe very few employees. With the Industrial Revolution, the economy centers grew, and more people began to “go to work” for fewer people. Employees and employers were added to dictionaries. Traditional family trades became companies or corporations.
Mom: What is your point?
Me: My point is companies are not built for providing job security. They are built for providing maximum revenue for the investors. America was booming and there was no unemployment until the 2008 meltdown. All the jobs are now transferred to places with cheap labor. You can fire employees but you can’t fire a company or the benefit its investors get.
Dad: You are talking something much unrelated. We are in India son.
Me: Agreed. India is growing; maybe it is the next super power. But I don’t need job security, I need income security. Job security gives me freedom to grow to a certain level, till my economy grows. Income security allows me to outgrow the economy I live in. If India doesn’t work for me, I am in 3 other countries which are sure to give me returns in future. But if I lose a job, I have to find another for the salary.
Mom: (cuts me off for some emotional drama) So what you are saying is that your dad was a fool to work in a job all his life?
Me: Ah! No, that’s not what I meant! For your era, I think it was a very good choice and the fact that dad enjoyed his job is more than enough to justify his choice. But what I mean to say is, as of today, I don’t want to put our faith and trust in the wrong places, counting on an employer or a company to sustain me, when I should have been developing my own value in the market place. We can no longer count on jobs to sustain us, rescue us, or bail us out. Employers are doing their best to keep their own head above water – do not count on them to rescue you when the sea is rough.
Dad: So, being an entrepreneur guarantees you income? I can’t believe you can talk so immaturely. Your business can shut down tomorrow. What will you do then?
Me: (Frustrated and getting second thoughts on why I even tried explaining) I don’t expect that everyone will “get it.” The Indian culture does not yet know how to support the entrepreneurs in our midst.  (Apply for a credit card or a loan with a new business, even a profitable one, and you’ll see what I mean.)
People believe that being a business owner is risky, but I believe that having only ‘one’ source of income – ‘one’ source that can be terminated at any time – is the real risk. As a business owner, I currently have 3 different businesses in 3 different countries. What is the risk they will all shut down at once?
Mom: Okay, but it takes a lot of time and we want you to get settled as soon as possible. There are lots of fluctuations in a business. With a job, you can get settled faster.
Me: I know where you’re going at, but a job is often a fixed set of requirements and rewards, whereas a business is as good as a breathing organism.  A salary may be preset and many times stagnant, but business revenues rise when properly attended to and fostered. A job may be a set of tasks which have been determined, but a business is a white canvas, and the entrepreneur is free to paint his/her imagination, the entrepreneurial freedom that makes him/her get up in the morning because the canvas beckons. Sure, some employees are enthusiastic and motivated by their job, but among entrepreneurs, it’s the rule, to be successful you have to be passionate about what you do.
Mom: So you are not going to change?
Me: Why should I? It is a way of life for me. I get up in the morning looking forward to the day and it gives me satisfaction to know I am making a change in the world.
Dad: (Smiles slyly) You will not change but you will change the world?
Me: (kind of pissed) Yes, a business is built over solving a problem. Businesses don’t just provide economic solutions. We make living providing solutions to all kinds of needs and challenges. Whether the problem is physical pain, a desire for a better travel experience, or how to get a package to Bangalore overnight, entrepreneurs are the alchemists of our time. Henry Ford might be called an inventor/scientist but I prefer to call him an Entrepreneur. You don’t have to necessarily sell to be an entrepreneur. We are literally turning problems into gold.
Mom: At the end of the day, you will continue to refuse joining a Job?
Me: I can’t help it. I am happy being an entrepreneur and I would be glad if you understand my work and appreciate it. Money is a part of my life, but I wouldn’t want to make it the only focus and later regret it my whole life.
Dad: Okay fine, just make sure you know where you are going. (Turns to my mom) what are we having for dinner?
I would like to keep my dad’s expressions on that last statement a secret. A hint maybe is that I am a happier person today. I firmly stick to my belief that entrepreneurs are the best set of people I have met. They come in many shapes, sizes and behavior patterns, but they certainly love what they do and I have immense respect for the fact that their passion for their work is undying and unchanged, come what may.