In the beginning of a journey it really feels like so much energy and enthusiasm. We start walking with new hopes and discovering new possibilities in our life. It is same in all perspective like in a relationship or in a job.
"A man who is good in school will not perform well in his office" said by one of the motivator who was delivering a speech on being corporate. These lines can be implemented on me too as because I was not so good in my school or college. I use to bunk a lot of classes in my college days and at one point I seriously stopped visiting ;) there. I use to sit at home and work on my laptop I learn that world has gone open and had started to release documentations and tutorials openly on internet. Later the most wonderful thing which I saw was the sudden increase in video tutorials which seriously helped a lot to learn at negligible cost that is internet connectivity cost.
Suddenly then the college was over and I was got a new job. Previously when I use to stay at my home for skipping college, I use to develop application using different languages. I had a magic in my hand, any language I could learn in a week and develop a basic application by second week.
Now, when I have joined a company where I was appointed as a Tester, the first month was so exciting. But with time things started to change, I discovered that I cant test an application so well as I can develop it. Though with time I kept on dragging myself and trying as much I can.
I have always worked when I use to be at my home. There working was pretty different. I use to walk and thing, write a lot on copy or a white board. My comfort-ability was my creativity.
Here at jobs I have to sit in front of a PC on a chair for 10 hours. My productivity have became so obsolete and how I have transform from such a versatile mind to a non excited mentality just for 2 reason, the money which I earn in my job and second to tell others that yes I am employed. I fear to say others that I am sitting at my home to make the product or service for upcoming future because this is not the mentality of the citizens in the country where I live in.
Don't have much to speak, but truly speaking I know I am destroying my quality, it has been 3 months in my job and I have transformed so much that I really never wished to as this transformation was undesirable and this was not what I wanted to or even wished to. We are born as rebellion, I cant just sit idle on this chair and let me rotten in this way. I know this path was chosen by me which had led me to a path which was not for me at any cost so I need to save myself. I will find out a way and once I have, I will just sprint out of this undesirable path.
"A man who is good in school will not perform well in his office" said by one of the motivator who was delivering a speech on being corporate. These lines can be implemented on me too as because I was not so good in my school or college. I use to bunk a lot of classes in my college days and at one point I seriously stopped visiting ;) there. I use to sit at home and work on my laptop I learn that world has gone open and had started to release documentations and tutorials openly on internet. Later the most wonderful thing which I saw was the sudden increase in video tutorials which seriously helped a lot to learn at negligible cost that is internet connectivity cost.
Suddenly then the college was over and I was got a new job. Previously when I use to stay at my home for skipping college, I use to develop application using different languages. I had a magic in my hand, any language I could learn in a week and develop a basic application by second week.
Now, when I have joined a company where I was appointed as a Tester, the first month was so exciting. But with time things started to change, I discovered that I cant test an application so well as I can develop it. Though with time I kept on dragging myself and trying as much I can.
I have always worked when I use to be at my home. There working was pretty different. I use to walk and thing, write a lot on copy or a white board. My comfort-ability was my creativity.
Here at jobs I have to sit in front of a PC on a chair for 10 hours. My productivity have became so obsolete and how I have transform from such a versatile mind to a non excited mentality just for 2 reason, the money which I earn in my job and second to tell others that yes I am employed. I fear to say others that I am sitting at my home to make the product or service for upcoming future because this is not the mentality of the citizens in the country where I live in.
Don't have much to speak, but truly speaking I know I am destroying my quality, it has been 3 months in my job and I have transformed so much that I really never wished to as this transformation was undesirable and this was not what I wanted to or even wished to. We are born as rebellion, I cant just sit idle on this chair and let me rotten in this way. I know this path was chosen by me which had led me to a path which was not for me at any cost so I need to save myself. I will find out a way and once I have, I will just sprint out of this undesirable path.
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