Throwing out the Frustrations

Sometimes we really lose control from our mind, our consciousness.

This happens to me also but basically I don't try to throw out the anger on someone else or make any victim of my frustrations.

Can't remember many things, this is my problem. Or it might happen that my thoughts are not organized this can also happen.

Sometimes things or moments or a person's words really pierce our heart and we are not able to control our mind. Some of the moments we even don't want to control ourselves. We really want to let things flow out of our body in any way like anger, anxiety, frustrations, being mad, etc.

There are so many thoughts which enter in my head, some are positive and some are really negative. Sometimes I really get scared and few times I gain my confidence.

If there are number of opportunities then we start to think that which one will be the fruitful one and has a future in it. I wanted to create opportunities of my own. Its not my ego but my enthusiasm and this is how I truly define achievements.

The taste of success can only be delicious if a person has traveled a long path and with lots of ups and downs. Its not the ultimate result which matters, but all the while how we lived, how we walked on the path matters as at the end every one has to die, so don't live to die.

Now talking about my life, I am trying hard to do my own crazy work at home to create a business, but there is so much time constrain from the job which I am doing, that it really doesn't gives time to me to think of any other things.

Family Interactions
Friends Interactions
Social Interactions

These are like completely vanishing from me. I am not an isolated person, nor I want to be.

I go to the office where I do job, then I come back home and sit in my office and try to run my business.

That's all what I doing all day. I don't get much time from my job that's why I give all my left over hours in my business, and thus all the other stuffs which I should do like spend time with family, friends and the society, doesn't happen.

Ewaystores - Part 1

Ewaystores the name which ignites the mind now-a-days as because we are trying to focus on generating a start-up out of this idea. The first thought which comes in my head regarding this start-up is how can I help others to do business in a more effective way.

I have never seen any person who are young, fresh minded and studying in college, filled up with lots of energies and is having a thought of doing business. I may be wrong, why any student will want to do a business as because basically businesses are run by the experience people and aged one who have grey hairs.

My thesis can be proven wrong very easily as because there are many people (out of India) who are very young and had became multimillionaire.

In India, no such scope I guess. the question which I keep asking myself is that what does it take to start or run a business. On of the simple answer which can be thought is that when a person decides to provide a product or a service, then he/she may opt to start a new business.

India is the biggest consumer but the stuff we consume are basically not made in India. This is one of the opportunity which people of India are not looking at.

One need to understand what consumers need is. Once a person get an idea of it, then a new business can be thought.

Non Deterministic Path

I was so much good in coding when I was in my college. Came out of the college, joined a company doing a Testing job. Whole potential was wasted. Can't solve a simple problem even now after 6 months. 

Leaving that testing job, and joining another company. But the boss of the new company was persuaded by my skills which I displayed that was again the testing one. 

Don't know where to go what to do ?

I have a thought to become an entrepreneur, but what I dislike about the testing is the boring manual checking which I have to perform. It brings yawn on my face.

In a start-up company like IT products,

Coding

 Database

 Documents

 Testing

 Managing

 Marketing

There are lots of things to be done.

When there are lots of ideas and you have to decide which one you want to do and which one would be profitable then you are seriously unsure what to do and which one you are going to choose. 

I don't know whether the start up idea which I am trying to pursue will be fruitful or will really solve the persisting problem in India or not. But where is my thought is all about. 

Some times I want to move on to Education field and sometimes Health and then came the start-up idea to help support the Businesses.

Already there is an application ready to serve the small and medium shops to manage their stocks and crease their sales, but then there is a giant company online sales like flip-kart and amazon, who are going to provide sales in such a way that they will wash off the whole small and medium shops

But wait they need items to sell.

People who produce, make or create products, they just need an extra person to deliver their stuffs to the consumers.

I don't know, whom are we going to fight with but whether this path like helping the SMEs will be a nice idea or not ?

Wait why I am judging the path according to the revenue which it will give me. Why not do something which I like, which we like to do. For which we are passionate to do.

Choose: Education, Health, Ewaystores.

Unwanted Moments of Life

Lots of fragility is inside me. Some time we really need a person with whom we can share everything and expect a decent suggestion from them.

Friends are getting jobs are MNC, I never wanted to work on such platform as because I know I am very mean, once I have a secure job I will stop finding ways to grow and cultivate myself.

But the problem which has occurred that I have started measuring myself according to the money which I am earning.

Every morning I am very unsatisfied with the life which I am living. Don't know where my smile has been lost. Seriously don't like to live to feel fun or joy.

When I was in college my thought was like an free bird, I dream to be an Entrepreneur. To make a product and do business. I will love doing so and earning money from that way was the dream moment of my life as I would be doing something which I love and also sustaining myself with the amount of money which I am earning.

But look at this moment, what had gone wrong is that at this moment I formed a firm with one of my friend and then saw that I am really into this service based company like outsourcing and all the stuff which is being done by all the company near by or in India. I am not becoming very hopeless that where I have come to, I seriously didn't wanted to be this.

I dreamed of a company which would be product based. Now at last from the last week I am planning to make a such business model but that is too scary its like an e-commerce site which is already available on the web in a huge amount.

Should we transform it into an api so that any one can get it or use it from our site. In this way B2B and B2C. Don't know what will happen but I think untill and unless I don't try it out I will not understand what was the right idea.

4 months in the Job, Started Feeling Nothing

Where am I standing, what to do and why I am living like this?

Questions after questions, can't search any answer.

I am in this professional world since 4 months. Right now I am completely surprised by the experience which I am facing past few days. Fear of being cheated from a professional partner. No such projects in hand, hard to find the hopes of surviving in the future as marketing is not so easy part and due to which bringing project in our hands is really tough to do.

I am already doing a job in a company. While joining I was so much enthusiastic and filled up with energies but now I fill like seriously I am not worthy for a job at this moment. I don't have any skill. When I was in my college I use to sit with my laptop and make any possible application which I didn't have imagine that I will be able to create. I was a master developer at that age though compared to professional I am not so good like them but though at such age I was pretty good enough to make something, but look at me now, I have lost my enthuse, my confidence, the possibilities which I can reach with my ability, all these has been lost from my head. I have started to believe that I am not good and can't be even.

From Developer to Tester, I don't know what I have lost in the mid way, and even I can't compare that where the gain is bigger than my loss or not. I really need to decide something, that what I should do? which path I should choose to walk on.

I am not getting time for myself, each day I am busy with some work or something which I really can't do, but trying hard to concentrate on it.
Where the hell is my concentration ?
I am dividing myself, my life, my time in more than 3 paths and ultimately gaining nothing out of it.

I think I was looking at the money which I am earning. The thought that suppressed me was that at this age of my life, my friends (colleagues) are earning 20,000 per month and me? just 10,000 that also with 2000 rupees per month traveling expenses. Ultimately I am losing the self respect due to which the desire to live is diminishing.

Floating ideas for startups

All the way in life we think of a lot of ideas, basically these are the ideas which are kind of a solution to a problem which we are facing or a community/society is facing.
Previously there was no such acceptance of these innovative solutions but with the advancement of information age we have seen a lot of examples where people came up with an idea and started implementing it. As a result few failed but the ones who had dedication and determination, they survived and made their dreams real.
Some such solutions are:

1. online service centers

2. online take a lift and pay (online hitchhiker)

I am writing these two idea as because this may help me in my future when  I would be recalling my ideas from my journal or blogs. :)

Fear of Cross-Roads

Basically there are two ways (minimum) after any decision we take like which way to choose. 
Prior to all these one has to collate down to a decision which way to choose? 
In doing so one will simply analyze a lot compare the options or situations after taking the decision and then
come to a final decision. Its really hard to decide what to do or what not to.

Cause to all of these above thoughts is just one, we fear to face difficulties. We fear to pass through difficult paths.
We fear from the bad times.
No one want to taste bad moments, and why will any one wish such, if he or she does then Psychology can be blamed ;)

I am doing a job which is hard for me or might be not meant for me, but still cant leave it and start the journey which I dream of, why? because I have a fear that if the other choice will be more bitter and unproductive then? what am I going to do? find a new job or try something else?

What will be there to back me up?