Work - finding your purpose

Recently, I went to Kochi, met with Dr. Mahesh at Amrita Institute of Medical Sciences. I had some really good conversation with Dr. Mahesh, understood some critical healthcare problems and how brilliant minds are working on it. There are research papers which specialist like them release, available on web, which has years of research's and experiment's summary.
Doctor shared how he saved a young kid's life through 3D printing his heart, as doctors were not ready to operate him because they were unable to find a way by looking in the MRI scan and come up with a feasible solution, but what Dr. Mahesh created a 3D print of the heart and sliced it right at the area where it was required to calculate the size of the flap which will filled and thus this way saved the boy.
Now, to gather this 3D printer Dr. Mahesh contacted couple of people outside India but it was hard to bring in such printer, but somehow he was successful. After the operation, the kid was saved and on recovery asked him if he can see the 3D printed model of his heart. On showing it to him Doctor came to know that this kid had already made a 3D printer 3 months back at his home, this kid belonging from a small town near to Kochi has collected information, contacted people all around the globe, ordered items from Alibaba and built a basic prototype of 3D printer which was actually working. What a coincidence!!!

While having a conversation with Dr. Mahesh, who was 45 but use to look like 35, I asked why are he is working here in Kochin at AIMS as he can earn 5x times anywhere in India but he choose this place, why? (he is from Delhi actually but has been here from last 13 years)
He told that in north doctor are asked to touch the business goal but here we focus on saving the pediatrics (infants), with a humor he told that this morning you might have woke up and had you breakfast, right? but this morning from 6 to 10, he saved 6 lives, that also infants, just imagine the smile on those little kids when they get well. This is what he emphasized is the real reward for him, working at AIMS.

He suggested, one day while working you will get an opportunity or say path which you truly want to walk on not for money but for the cause which touch you, will satisfy you, choose that path and you will be happy, content and creative henceforth just as he is.


Addons
There are real world problems which are occurring and then there are people who are trying to solve those problems. What we are doing is crying about our own substantial problems which don’t have a real meaning and worth of, but as we are so much distracted in our own life, we don’t get time to look at these real world problems and get inspired to solve it.

There are research papers on pubMed and open source platform where people like Dr. Mahesh release their publications which are generated after months of research. Now how these people can have connect to young innovators to facilitate research work in the hands for future generation and on the other hand how these young innovators can have connects to such people who can act as mentors and guide them to give path in their life.

That chap wanted to build a 3D printing machine and he reached out to different people across the globe for help and even ordered items from Alibaba to assemble and test the device. This line actually inspired me, we are so much hesitant in our lives to even talk to someone and that chap was asking questions and help from unknowns. That's actually excellent. 

3 years of Lattice's journey

Lattice – a journey

August 28^th 2014, everyone in IT department was called in a conference room and the final decision was publically revealed that Soura, Chayan and Sahil are separating out from Glocal! Everyone in IT team was shocked and surprised, I was too. We were dismissed and most of us came down to ground floor where we have casual chitchat. I remember, out of logic, I told to Sahil that where ever you guys are going, I am coming. I was brought-in by Soura, not by Glocal recruitment team; so I don’t have any bondage to be in Glocal once he leaves. All this was illogical, but enthusiasm and energy was sprouting out through words.

Next day Soura offered me with a calculated risk that he has 6 months of salary to give, the 7^th month salary will be dependent on the work and effort we will put in these 6 months. Deal closed. It was a counting period, can’t procrastinate, and have to work.

It was scary, but it was exciting; that’s what mattered then. Every colleague around me warned me not to join, but I had already made my mind without any second thought. Though I was scared but had desire to learn.

First day of Lattice – October 13^th 2014, I came to Chayan’s house. Soura came in a short while. Our rented office was not furnished yet, but still we all decided to inaugurate it with an agarbatti. Bought tables and other necessary items to start working. Using our mobile hotspot and laptop we sat down to initiate work on it’s very first official day. It was not as glorious as working in a big IT building having a polished looking office area, it was how starting from a scratch looks like and somewhere admirable. No one was scared, even if we were, Soura, Chayan and Sahil were much mature to show it outside, and I have to resonate with them as well, so no option left.

Three years down the line – the 6 month has converted into 3 years now and we came from CK-81 Kolkata to C-25 New Delhi

Rishikesh Diaries - April 10, 2016

It was a hell of the trip. Not so known people, rafting, early morning walks and taking pictures. It was good and a decent one.
A lady from Germany taught me about reducing carbs intake and Mohit added to it by informing not to have sugar after evening.
A guy who informed me that meditation is what you learn first and then practice.

It was all of a sudden trip, booked train tickets when Mohit told me that he is planning to go to Rishikesh. I did booked the train tickets to Haridwar and left on Friday night. Though it will will reach there in the morning, but I arrived there at 4 AM, what to do!!!

I did have conversation with co-travelers, got to know who they are, from where they are. They seems to be trustworthy, the old myth that not to talk to strangers was not working here. We stepped out of the station and had a cup of tea, I was wondering what to do in this dark dawn. Everyone who were in the train were traveling to a place call 'Har-ki-podi', so even I started walking with them. There were hundreds of people going to same place, I didn't want to be left out alone in the dark. With me, two of the co-travelers also joined and we started talking and walking towards 'Har-ki-podi'.

When I reached there, couldn't resist the temptation to take a dip in the water - the fresh Gangotri water. Didn't have a towel so bought it then and there and went for a scared bath (this is what they call). The water was freezingly cold even in the month of April, but it gave a feeling of relaxation. Nobody was there who could see me and judge me by having the knowledge of my life, there were two acquaintance whom I meet in the train but they don't know me well. I was calm and relaxed, looking around when the sun was about to rise and bring that place to life.
At 5:45, there was a morning Aarti to welcome the sun, it was good to be present there at that moment and watch it.

We had our breakfast after that and went to a temple which was located at the top of a mountain, did darsana of the Gods. It was those two acquaintance's idea but while going to the top, it was a beautiful sight of Haridwar. After coming down, we headed to Rishikesh. There we parted our ways, I met with Mohit, went straight to Zostel.

Rishikesh - was cool and adventurous. Went to river rafting, cliff jumping, it was so extra ordinary experiences. Chilled water of the river, different activities, fear of jumping from the cliff - at that moment you feel gravity at it's best. By evening we came back to our zostel, then we headed to have dinner at one of the oldest restaurant, by 12 we were back and slept.
Don't know from where the thought of waking up early in the morning came to my mind, I was tired but though got up at 5 and left for a walk around Rishikesh.

Ram Jhula was the best spot I felt, cool breeze at it's speed, the sight of the mountains and the river. The most amazing part, there was no one around. I was standing on the Jhula, only I was there, that's it. I stopped and felt the breeze and the moment for a while, trying to consume the enormity of the moment and nature for a while.

     

Moving forward, I walked through the streets of Rishikesh, all alone, no one at my sight. Slowly people had started appearing at a distance. It was silence and serene. I was smiling profoundly from inside, feeling up gasp of oxygen in my lungs and absorbing the sights and atmosphere.

        

I thanked myself to wake up early and going out for the walk. It filled a sense of having the feeling of being alive in me, being present in the moment and in your surroundings. I loved it.

This was the part of Rishikesh which I saw and perceived, rest everyone experience the same thing, only this part was different.

Welcoming 2015 with a Sunrise

We slept at nearly 2 o' clock in the morning after walking through a mile. It was 1st Jan 2015.

All of us went to the beach that midnight, to see the fire crackers and the joy of new year. The sparkling of fire crackers, for 10 minutes we looked up in the sky. We all were really enjoying the moment. It was nice and fun.

Then we returned to our hotels, it was late around 1:30 AM. Sitting on our bed, me, Anup and Ankit decided to watch the Sunrise. I really wanted to, as it inspires me. The soft red color Sun, rising from the horizon and reflecting through water, which later will glow so brightly that it's hard to look at.
It says, you can be weak or posses less skills and quality now; but that doesn't mean you will be like this all the while. Try and give time to yourself, practice, persevere and be patient, you will reach where and what you are determined of. This view fills up energy in me to grow and glow. That's why I really wanted to go to see the Sunrise.

Darsh and Binay were tired and they didn't want to go. We decided, we will try to wake them up, if they don't then don't, but we three will go. :-)

Slept at 2 might be, I don't remember that whether we actually slept or not, but at 4 AM, we woke up, tired and went to the beach.

August 4 2015

I hear my senior executives talking to people in English and have a very good conversation with them, like for an example by the end of the conversation they mention that how it was good to have you on the call/conversation, this clearly reflects the quality of conversation and creates a bonding between them professionally.

Am I not enjoying the work at this moment or I am getting weak in coding? I don't like to code in any language any more. I just like to think about the logic, design the system and write the SQL queries.

I am still dangling with the thought that what is better for me? The technical part which I am finding I am not good at or the one which is more managerial stuff. I am not good in english and communication hence I can't go in front to the clients or our customers because I may lower the quality of the organization, I am not a perfect professional with the quality of the professionalism.

My problem: Conversation and Communication in English. Here is where I lack. I need to make myself good at this one.
I will work on it.

Integrating linkedin is really taking me time. Have I became lazy?
No I wasn't lazy, I was not clear what to do exactly. After discussing it with my colleague, now I know what to do and how?

I was able to achieve something today i.e. to display the authorization box to the user.
But today was not so productive too. After the lunch I took a break to play an addictive game, then worked something related to CRY, then browsed through social media. In this way I spent 3 hours of my time and did almost nothing kind of.

Sales call

August 9th post:

Today I called all the students who have registered themselves for the platform, ReCoin Lab. Some were excited, some where okay and some where like I don't know who you are!

Sometimes it was embarrassing to talk to some as they were least interested in the conversation, there was this guy who showed interest first then he told if I can call him up after sometime, then after 2 hours when I called him; he simply disconnected the call.

These are called sales call, you are not going to make all of them, turn into a success sale. Somewhere you need to keep trying and pushing to make your initial sales. Yes I know these are not the part which you have ever done and are comfortable to do. It's okay, you can take this as your practical MBA course. If you fail, you may fail but you need to come up with strategies and build those around them.

I need to make a lot of sales call I guess in upcoming months and keep trying to get all those call towards affirmative directions. Sales call are the most tough part in the business until and unless you create a value which is really required and there is demand for it.
Yes I need to focus more on the product which I am trying to build and keep improving the quality of it.

Marketing will automatically happen when there is a quality and once I have a brand value, most of the marketing channel targets will convert to successful sales as well.

Next day edits (June 26th): Some of the students were asking if this is an online platform!

Failed #5

Okay I failed, I left Delhi, a good paying job and came to Kolkata to start something of my own, to create something but I failed bad. It was not okay and comfortable to accept that I failed, but the reality is I did.
Now what?

From last 10 days I was drowning in my own darkness and heavily low in energy. I don't know what to do now and what to do next! Completely feeling lost somewhere. Talking to near by people and friends is only helping me cope up with the situation.

What are the points which led to this failure:

• I thought I would be able to start this thing but I was wrong and then I remember that one should never try to start a company all by itself, he or she needs more than one co-founder to keep the enthusiasm level high. 
• Moreover before starting up I should have done a ground study and research properly, I don't know how to conduct that as well.
• Checking whether the idea will work or not? conducting surveys and getting feedback from the potential users that whether they will be willing to pay for it or not.
• Is there any already working model (i.e. competitors). If so then that will validate that there is already a market for it, but now I should have looked that what they are offering and how they are offering? Might be my way would be incorrect.
• Location - yes it matter a lot because the mentality of the people depends as well, sometimes the community is not ready for that kind of product or service, hence one needs to identify where it will work. One can even solve this problem by educating the community about the product and services, spreading awareness about it, but the choice is always on the others hand whether to buy it or not.
• Hope - perseverance, I have less patience i.e. it would help me to go for a long run. An empire can't be built in one day, it takes time. I get fragile and impatient. I still haven't found a way how to fix this problem in me and figure out the process/ steps to follow to achieve where I want to reach.

Collectively all this has resulted in my failing, but at the end the major question is: Have I given up?