Why I am not able to be an entrepreneur

Few years back when I was in 4th year of my engineering, I did a course called Tech Entrepreneurship from Online portal which was being taught by Standford's professor. Doing that course filled a lot of energy to me then and I was so hyper active. I use to think of numerous of ideas and eager to make a venture. I was ready to take a risk.

Now, I am as if stagnated, unproductive, stable. I don't hustle anymore. I am fearing about what will happen if I take this risk then I may loose someone. I can't fulfil my dreams, or this is just a mere thought. What I think is you have stopped making small projects and experimenting them. Dump this thought that you are not taking the risk because of losing someone, this is a just mere excuse. Try to be realistic and practical, on what grounds are you willing to take this risk, do you have any plan? any business model?? any idea even?

Firstly stop thinking that you know much, and stop acting like you are a teacher, this thought is what stagnating you, stay foolish and stay hungry, never get mature, be a child from the mind. You shouldn't act like you have to teach someone something, just be like as if you are talking and if they find it helpful then they may accept it and appreciate it. Most of the people out there are more  matured than what you are right now, so stay hungry and eager to learn. 

After many months, I enrolled myself in the entrepreneurship course (I guess I like business end more than the technical end) and looking at the people around me I became skeptical that oh they are doing like this, I wasn't like this before. I know how I became skeptical. I need to throw out this nature and be optimistic.

Positive things happen to Positive people 

Something very valuable I learned about making a startup: 

Zuckerberg in an interview said that he use to do small projects always and out of which one hit the market and it went viral. I got to incorporate this habit in me.

Some mindset change thing which I learned today:

• So far any documentary or interview or lesson I use to watch or read, I use to get an idea of how I don't fit into those shoes who became a successful entrepreneur or don't have the quality which they had in the early stages.
• But, today when I listen to Zuckerberg interview there was this point which I can't recall but it made me feel that yes I have this quality in me hence I can be an entrepreneur one day, yes that quality was - making small projects and experimenting them out. Zuckerberg also mentioned that college or institutes shouldn't be taken in a sense that you need to learn these particular skills but in return one should focus on what he/she knows and add it to his/her knowledge base and work around that, focus on what are you good at.  Even Elon Musk use to skip his college and work on a separate project which he wanted to sell. 

Thread of my life - Intimidated easily

So here is the thing, I use to think how people achieve success, are they born like that or they get shaped in such way on the process of life? or it is they work on themselves to become a material of success.
I use to think, take notes from online articles, analyse personal life and people whom I met, how successful people do things differently and how?

Soura, who is the CEO of Lattice has very proficient knowledge of anything which he do. He is dominating, so most of the time when he is in a debate or talking to people then his point is very valid and well put.

What I am lacking at is the knowledge which I have. Last day I was hearing Sundar's interview, he did point out that sometimes in your life you will have to work with people who would be challenging, will intimidate you. That is the phase when you will find insecurities and feel that you are not so competent, and the good part is, here you will get disheartened but if you can work on yourself and control yourself then you get the opportunity to enhance yourself during this phase.

Don't be in a state where everything is easy and simple for you, that means you are not growing. What do you want? just be where you are or want to grow.

What is wrong in me? I think a lot, analyse a lot. I wait for the feedback from another person to confirm that I did a nice job. Boss, you should understand that if you would have done a not so good job then next time when you approach you are not going to get that much return.
You should do your job rest is other's job. Just make sure whatever you are doing is very structured, logical and proper (not perfect, be practical).

You need to work hard and make yourself an intelligent person too. Read, and speak out what you have in your head, you may be wrong in the initial phase but you should commit to yourself that you are gonna fix your incapabilities and make yourself better.
Make sure whatever content you add to your mind and speak should be very valid and authentic. If someone doubts it, say okay let me think on it. I may be wrong but need to know more about it.
This way you won't get offended and give time to yourself to improve.

Finding Software Project's Lifetime

Project completed, developed and tested and even deployed on the client's end.
Now, the question rises!! What will be the lifetime of this software i.e how long will the user use the software without asking for any further upgrade?

With time the data in the back-end keep on increasing, the queries written for the system will take longer time to return the requested records.

Who can validate that system can withstand such future load or any other dependencies?
Mostly the support team is the first layer where it is reported about any issues which the software faces.
Then from the support team it gets articulated to the testing team.
On reproducing the error or investigating on the issue being faced. From here the manager is being notified.
The manager then bring it up in the group meeting with the developers, that's how the develop gets aware of the issue which wasn't able to visualize, the manager couldn't figure out at the time of design and development, the testing team missed it.

So, finally who can estimate the lifetime and take steps to extend it?

• An analyst who have experience in testing and have a track record of finding logical loopholes.
• An experienced project manager.
• Experienced developer or the one who can think/ figure out logical dependencies at code level.

If there's a position or specialization in IT field who can do an audit of the project an evaluate the lifetime of the project.

How he/she can gain this expertise?
 1. Surveying the projects which has been deployed and used on the field.
 2. Reading project analysis report and all.

BUT, in today's world there isn't any concept of one time build and delivered software as the world has accepted the rapid upgrading technique. Hence all this won't mean.

Though one should audit the limitation of the software system.

Deciding the career path

Lots of thing are going on. I am getting interested in the events which are happening around me. Previously I wasn't able to read newspaper because it use to effect me but now at least I can read news on internet, the ones which I like to read. Recently, I have seen  that in Indian Express app the news are worth reading, they don't post unnecessary  news.

Facebook can be used to get trending news and read lots of useful articles.

Twitter can be used to get an idea of latest happenings.

I have taken up responsibilities at work. Getting older, now I really need to know how to live life so that I may achieve what I want to or for now at least I can say that how to be a quality person in business field.

Should I go for MBA? do I need it or ? I should read some more about this and figure out that should I really take this decision? 

I am good at coding. Moreover I don't want to spend any more money on education. I have already burnt a lot.

Talks about business and events.

Today I was having conversation with Samip, telling him about the idea that me and Niraj were planning to have a Saturday event kind of once in a month for the startups to validate their idea.
I recalled that there was two events which we tried to organize and was successful in a small scale.
Samip came up with the idea that why not to leave an impression by the time we leave Kolkata. Organize a event in a small scale and make it successful.

I thought "Yes it is possible". Will need to plan out how? as we don't want to make it a big one so that it may not effect our work schedule in any possible way.

We can plan it in the month of September once Samip is back from States.
Name it, "Learn how to hack".

Then on returned back to home, had a conversation with Niraj regarding a product. I need to learn marketing!! representing, showcasing. He said why not to take this ERP product further, why not to sell this software to small to medium scale shops. I don't know what would be the future but if we try to help these small scale businesses to aid them in making more sales and managing their business then I hope we may succeed in making some sales.

• Sales target: 10. 
• Cost of the software: 5000 INR.
• Type of business: Garments, Medicine.
• Value Prop: Purchase and Sales, Dealers and Customers.

 This Saturday, me Niraj and Anup are going to have a discussion about this. Let's see what comes up.

Making yourself better

What is exactly my goal? When I can say that yes I have gained the stability of my life and I am successful.
What is the mark where I have to reach? Financially, Socially, Professionally and Personally. In all the four horizons what is that I have to be so that I may call myself yes this is it, which I was dreaming.

Personally, I am a good guy and I have to be a good guy. No such jealousy, hidden thoughts for anyone.

Professionally I am getting better. I am learning every day doing something which I can't do or is at the higher level. This way I am taking steps vertically. Need to go further. At this moment I am an employee. One day I will stand out my own business or uphold father's business and will run it.

Financially I am getting better, my bank account is getting a good amount of savings. Though I need to learn how to spend and run your livelihood entirely on yourself. I need to educate myself and practise this. How much I am earning, how much I should spend and how much should I save. I need to work out on this part.

Socially, yes this part needs a lot of attention. I am not going out mixing with people and being social. I am living alone with myself. I really need to go out and open up in every different type of groups and community.

The point which I have missed out are being Healthy, how is my Psychology, what is my Philosophy?

These are the areas which also need attention when you need stability and success in your life.

The Sherlock effect

Yesterday (3rd May 2015) it was Sunday and I was stuck in watching a TV series named Sherlock, I really like the serial, it made me think that when you are obsessed about something i.e. your work which you love to do, then you are never left alone anywhere.
Things which had surprised me from that series are the term like

• Mindmap
• Thinking with the help of pictures
• Solving a problem in your mind with a large amount of data
• Talking to yourself and avoiding what others are thinking about you when you do so
• Love the subject which you like working on
• Creating a space in your home which is comfortable of thinking and experimenting

I wonder how can a person be so much obsessed about doing something so much. Waoooo I would say.
When you are alone you enhance the skills which you have and then while working along or with someone you can show off your skills set which you actually have and trying to upgrade it every day.
Thats what humans like isn't it, people liking them and appreciating their qualities. This make a person feel satisfied.

Watching Sherlock has somehow affected my way of thinking, now I don't like to think low level thoughts.
I need to enhance myself and you the time when I am alone productively.

How can I experiment the logic which I thought to develop any module of the project?