[Story] The boy who had a brave heart, but made a wrong decision.

This story is about a boy who is about to turn 18, from the chaos of the city and honks of the horns, one day he decides to take a path less traveled.. which was into the mountains. He was determined, he wanted to cross those mountains. Without telling anyone, he packed his bag and one morning left towards his destiny.

By the time it was dark, he was lost, he was afraid, he was stumbling and regretting. He thought whether he ran away from the chaos or did he ran into the chaos. All his thoughts were arguing with him for the decision he took. When he reached to the tip of the mountain, he had a look. He found nothing, it was a dump and dark everywhere, he lost the track, he lost the direction, now he was nowhere. Suddenly he slipped and fell a long way down.

When he stood up, he was already in shock.
He was forgetting who he was!
At that very moment, he sang a poem, which came out of his heart. This was his far cry:

I felt lost,
I feel the chaos.
Am I understanding the composition of reality?
Or is it just a mere basked dish cooked by time itself! which I am consuming or made to consume.

Why this noise in head?
Resonating through this darkness and loneliness.

Am I drifting?
or Am I falling!

Destination has shifted or scratched from my timeline.
Floating through the time, I am moving ahead towards a pointless turn.

Will I fall or be stamped by the events of my life?
Is this a long path or I can't see anyone in this dark!

Am I going to find myself or have to create one...

...BROKEN PIECES LOST


(to be continued)

The Peaceful Castle

"This story is about a young immature boy [young because he needs to learn a lot, immature because he commits mistakes, mistakes which are irreversible]. So now this boy who owns a land, owns a lady (who is a princess for him), owns a castle of mirrors [there is a reason why it's of mirrors]. The story is all about happiness, joy, loss and finding peace."

You tried to build a castle
A castle of mirrors
A castle of memories and emotions

Yes you wanted to have that beautiful fort to keep a princess
The princess which you have earned in this life
You wanted to live this life with her

Castle has to be as beautiful as she is,
(being beautiful is not only external but internal as well)
Or else it won't be comfortable for her, isn't it?
That castle has to be of mirrors,
Transparent and flawless.

You were there, about to finish the castle.
You were there when it was about to complete.
You made sure it gets completed.

Then!

Unspoken words,
Unspoken events,
Unspoken deeds.

You were there only,
but not the castle.

It was gone, gone forever.
You saw it going, you saw it disappearing.
It's somewhere where you don't know and can't know as well.

Ohhh, then you thought about the princess you had, yes now you had.
She is not there anymore.
You lost it, lost it in the chaos, the chaos and the tornado created by your own hands.

After all this while, when you were putting so much to build the castle,
you didn't realize that you are not capable of having that princess.
It made you void, it made me numb.

It was no more, there was nothing.
Now there is no winds blowing, no birds chirping.
Sun doesn't rises, moon doesn't glow.
It's just a plan simple barren land and blue sky with me.

I am stuck in this long large land,
It's not dark, there is pale blue light all over.
I can see myself that I am alive.
But all the dreams of the castle and green grassy lands are gone.
Nothing left.
Only the dreamt imaginations and failed wishes.

Is this called a loss or emptiness,
Atleast there is one satisfaction in heart that the princess will be happy somewhere and the castle will be standing somewhere.
Though those are not with me, but it is somewhere.

This fact gives me peace.
This fact gives me completeness.

Poetry #1

You dreamt of a train,
You dreamt of a train.

The only train, you wished to be on.
The train which you thought will take you to the destiny.

You dreamt of that train,
You dreamt of that train.

You planned how you will travel,
You imagined how it will look like from the windows.

You saw yourself being in it,
You smiled when you were crossing mountains and the terranean.

You touched the glass there was the rain,
You saw the rainbow coming out of the clouds.

Green fields and paddy grounds,
All crossed by saying you good bye.

You dreamt of that train,
You dreamt of the paths which were passing by.

All this you saw in your dreams,
So, that you wake up and make it real.

When the morning light came up,
You rushed to the station,
Catching your breathe,
You flashed through the roads.

On reaching there, you saw the train.
It already left, it was already far away.

You dreamt of this train which was already gone!
All the memories and the dreams were shouting in your brain.

You dreamt of this train,
Which you can't catch it again.

You have to see it passing away,
but still you dreamt of this train.

Tears rolled down through the eyes,
It was still raining outside.
Looking the dream pass by,
Thinking,
How will I sleep again and dream again.

Am I distracted or not paying attention

There are different channels on YouTube with lots of suggestion coming up on my home screen, I might not want to watch them but I am trapped in those suggestion. There are movies, serials, and now malls with glossy display to lure my attention. There are too many apps or solution to solve the problem which I face. 

When ever I try to download an app, at the very moment there are tones of suggested apps which are asking me to download them as well. Do I even know that I don't need to click on the suggested apps? They are just there to keep gulping my time which I spend on a certain online platform.

Somewhere I feel, "The larger part of my life is connected to internet and electronic devices, including this blog posting, rather than to nature."

 

All this which is around me is mostly man-made and I fell we creatures are worst in creation. Look at what we have been creating so far, the output of each innovation generates a new problem statement to be solved.

 

Okay, coming back to normal, there was a time when I liked to watch movies and serials, I use to do movie/ serial marathon, but today? 

I don't like it anymore. 

I have become very much selective now.

 

I use to get effected by those false creation/ dream sellers whose content were no were related to real world scenarios, though I was enjoying it. 

 

I see people love to go to a movie hall to entertain themselves by hooking their mind into a false reality on the screen rather than going to a park with their family and feel the grass and air, even I use to do so and still learning how things are getting different and we are loosing the true essence of our being. 

Malls and movie halls are much cleaner than parks, we cannot throw a piece of thrash anywhere in mall but can dump it in a green ground which was crafted by mother earth just for us, expecting that she will take care of it and later we claim it to be dirty and opt out to not go there.

We came from cellphone to green gardens in this post, isn't it, huge different?

 

Anyway, putting all this aside, I talked about myself, something for you, when was the last time you touched a leaf of a plant with your touch-screen based fingers?

Work - finding your purpose

Recently, I went to Kochi, met with Dr. Mahesh at Amrita Institute of Medical Sciences. I had some really good conversation with Dr. Mahesh, understood some critical healthcare problems and how brilliant minds are working on it. There are research papers which specialist like them release, available on web, which has years of research's and experiment's summary.
Doctor shared how he saved a young kid's life through 3D printing his heart, as doctors were not ready to operate him because they were unable to find a way by looking in the MRI scan and come up with a feasible solution, but what Dr. Mahesh created a 3D print of the heart and sliced it right at the area where it was required to calculate the size of the flap which will filled and thus this way saved the boy.
Now, to gather this 3D printer Dr. Mahesh contacted couple of people outside India but it was hard to bring in such printer, but somehow he was successful. After the operation, the kid was saved and on recovery asked him if he can see the 3D printed model of his heart. On showing it to him Doctor came to know that this kid had already made a 3D printer 3 months back at his home, this kid belonging from a small town near to Kochi has collected information, contacted people all around the globe, ordered items from Alibaba and built a basic prototype of 3D printer which was actually working. What a coincidence!!!

While having a conversation with Dr. Mahesh, who was 45 but use to look like 35, I asked why are he is working here in Kochin at AIMS as he can earn 5x times anywhere in India but he choose this place, why? (he is from Delhi actually but has been here from last 13 years)
He told that in north doctor are asked to touch the business goal but here we focus on saving the pediatrics (infants), with a humor he told that this morning you might have woke up and had you breakfast, right? but this morning from 6 to 10, he saved 6 lives, that also infants, just imagine the smile on those little kids when they get well. This is what he emphasized is the real reward for him, working at AIMS.

He suggested, one day while working you will get an opportunity or say path which you truly want to walk on not for money but for the cause which touch you, will satisfy you, choose that path and you will be happy, content and creative henceforth just as he is.


Addons
There are real world problems which are occurring and then there are people who are trying to solve those problems. What we are doing is crying about our own substantial problems which don’t have a real meaning and worth of, but as we are so much distracted in our own life, we don’t get time to look at these real world problems and get inspired to solve it.

There are research papers on pubMed and open source platform where people like Dr. Mahesh release their publications which are generated after months of research. Now how these people can have connect to young innovators to facilitate research work in the hands for future generation and on the other hand how these young innovators can have connects to such people who can act as mentors and guide them to give path in their life.

That chap wanted to build a 3D printing machine and he reached out to different people across the globe for help and even ordered items from Alibaba to assemble and test the device. This line actually inspired me, we are so much hesitant in our lives to even talk to someone and that chap was asking questions and help from unknowns. That's actually excellent. 

3 years of Lattice's journey

Lattice – a journey

August 28^th 2014, everyone in IT department was called in a conference room and the final decision was publically revealed that Soura, Chayan and Sahil are separating out from Glocal! Everyone in IT team was shocked and surprised, I was too. We were dismissed and most of us came down to ground floor where we have casual chitchat. I remember, out of logic, I told to Sahil that where ever you guys are going, I am coming. I was brought-in by Soura, not by Glocal recruitment team; so I don’t have any bondage to be in Glocal once he leaves. All this was illogical, but enthusiasm and energy was sprouting out through words.

Next day Soura offered me with a calculated risk that he has 6 months of salary to give, the 7^th month salary will be dependent on the work and effort we will put in these 6 months. Deal closed. It was a counting period, can’t procrastinate, and have to work.

It was scary, but it was exciting; that’s what mattered then. Every colleague around me warned me not to join, but I had already made my mind without any second thought. Though I was scared but had desire to learn.

First day of Lattice – October 13^th 2014, I came to Chayan’s house. Soura came in a short while. Our rented office was not furnished yet, but still we all decided to inaugurate it with an agarbatti. Bought tables and other necessary items to start working. Using our mobile hotspot and laptop we sat down to initiate work on it’s very first official day. It was not as glorious as working in a big IT building having a polished looking office area, it was how starting from a scratch looks like and somewhere admirable. No one was scared, even if we were, Soura, Chayan and Sahil were much mature to show it outside, and I have to resonate with them as well, so no option left.

Three years down the line – the 6 month has converted into 3 years now and we came from CK-81 Kolkata to C-25 New Delhi

Rishikesh Diaries - April 10, 2016

It was a hell of the trip. Not so known people, rafting, early morning walks and taking pictures. It was good and a decent one.
A lady from Germany taught me about reducing carbs intake and Mohit added to it by informing not to have sugar after evening.
A guy who informed me that meditation is what you learn first and then practice.

It was all of a sudden trip, booked train tickets when Mohit told me that he is planning to go to Rishikesh. I did booked the train tickets to Haridwar and left on Friday night. Though it will will reach there in the morning, but I arrived there at 4 AM, what to do!!!

I did have conversation with co-travelers, got to know who they are, from where they are. They seems to be trustworthy, the old myth that not to talk to strangers was not working here. We stepped out of the station and had a cup of tea, I was wondering what to do in this dark dawn. Everyone who were in the train were traveling to a place call 'Har-ki-podi', so even I started walking with them. There were hundreds of people going to same place, I didn't want to be left out alone in the dark. With me, two of the co-travelers also joined and we started talking and walking towards 'Har-ki-podi'.

When I reached there, couldn't resist the temptation to take a dip in the water - the fresh Gangotri water. Didn't have a towel so bought it then and there and went for a scared bath (this is what they call). The water was freezingly cold even in the month of April, but it gave a feeling of relaxation. Nobody was there who could see me and judge me by having the knowledge of my life, there were two acquaintance whom I meet in the train but they don't know me well. I was calm and relaxed, looking around when the sun was about to rise and bring that place to life.
At 5:45, there was a morning Aarti to welcome the sun, it was good to be present there at that moment and watch it.

We had our breakfast after that and went to a temple which was located at the top of a mountain, did darsana of the Gods. It was those two acquaintance's idea but while going to the top, it was a beautiful sight of Haridwar. After coming down, we headed to Rishikesh. There we parted our ways, I met with Mohit, went straight to Zostel.

Rishikesh - was cool and adventurous. Went to river rafting, cliff jumping, it was so extra ordinary experiences. Chilled water of the river, different activities, fear of jumping from the cliff - at that moment you feel gravity at it's best. By evening we came back to our zostel, then we headed to have dinner at one of the oldest restaurant, by 12 we were back and slept.
Don't know from where the thought of waking up early in the morning came to my mind, I was tired but though got up at 5 and left for a walk around Rishikesh.

Ram Jhula was the best spot I felt, cool breeze at it's speed, the sight of the mountains and the river. The most amazing part, there was no one around. I was standing on the Jhula, only I was there, that's it. I stopped and felt the breeze and the moment for a while, trying to consume the enormity of the moment and nature for a while.

     

Moving forward, I walked through the streets of Rishikesh, all alone, no one at my sight. Slowly people had started appearing at a distance. It was silence and serene. I was smiling profoundly from inside, feeling up gasp of oxygen in my lungs and absorbing the sights and atmosphere.

        

I thanked myself to wake up early and going out for the walk. It filled a sense of having the feeling of being alive in me, being present in the moment and in your surroundings. I loved it.

This was the part of Rishikesh which I saw and perceived, rest everyone experience the same thing, only this part was different.