Thought on MBA from outside India

I was thinking to do MBA few weeks back to gain up skills like talking to people and presenting ideas and gathering showcase kind of qualities.

Here I am with two MBA guys working at their company and figuring out how they are running their business. The main part is the contact which you make, one of a person with whom I discussed (Anubhav da) that whether I should do MBA or not? He asked me one simple question, you need it or you want it? Ouch that makes a lot of things clear.

Though Soura da and Avik Sir had appreciated me for being very organized at work. I found myself that yes I am structured some how. Few things which I scare off is the time spent to plan somethings as those plannings are never executed well and hence I keep on planning and planning. Things are never executed, this makes me feel sad.

Now what I can figure it out that MBA helps you to reach to the amount of contacts which you can have while pursuing it. It is more helpful when you do it from outside India, you get to have international contacts. Along with it when you return back to India people start to think that, ohh he has done MBA from outside India that too heavy and thus pay more attention to you, in this way you can get more connection. Even if you start a business then any one would think once for sure to do a business with you. This is kind of very helpful to you.

Along with all the above benefits you get to know how to present, anything, like a documentation, how it should be, a presentation or even yourself.

These two: connection and presentation are the two vital stuffs which you get to learn if you do MBA from outside India.

1st week at newly formed company

Okay last week I joined a newly formed company formed by Soura da. Yah I know its a huge pressure though I accept the challenges.

In one week out of new things I learned Webservices, Tomcat7 and Mysql setup in Digital ocean ubuntu server. Then came to GWT framework application and Jboss server. Oh my my I went through so many stuff and still on.

Today is 2nd Monday and here is what I have to do is make a DFD and Use Case diagram for the application which I will be building. Including mentioning the delivery date of it. Wow, I have been maintaining the task list and hence now I have to go a bit further and look into the Target list and connect to Task list to achieve the goals on time.

There is so many things to do. woww Its pressure but I like it. I don't know why I have taken this risk of working in a very unstable environment and a lot of responsibilities lies upon the way I work and how I work i.e. the business is going to be effected directly by my work. If I do good it will yield good and if I fail it will drop is some extent.

My God, this is what I am into but don't know why I choose this way. Let's see where I lead to after few months and what I become.

Product Development - Inception

My job is all about developing a product. I have always ran after learning what leads to creating a product basically which will turn to a business i.e. start-up.

From my life history I have been working on multiple product development which has been done by me and my friend 'Anup', but never brought it down to the market. We coded and then it was like what can be the possible revenue stream? Hence we left it, left it all. Never worked or pushed the product in the market. Finally, we were the ultimate user (the developers).

Today I work in a company where I have been indulged in a product development. I am the developer here, Android Developer. Now the first phase of the product has been developed. I know the UI is not that much good as other apps. Might be a lot of things need to be changed but still I see the first version of the app is almost ready.

Now my job, from here is to upgrade the product and check that the app should work perfectly in all the devices. There are hell lot of modification and up-gradation need to be done as I have planned in my head. Though it is me a developer that's why I think all of these technical thoughts.

From few days I am thinking that, now when the product is ready to release, the Alpha version, hence the marketing team will use some methodology to spread the app in the market. I really need and want and waiting to learn all the methods and implementation ways.

I am also scared about what would be the customer feed back from the app, I hope it should not get unresponsive or hang while using.

I will make a whole big list and check from all the perspective that user may go through while using this app.

Settled Life Going On

Few days a back I realized what all the heck of the stuffs which I like or even love to do. One of them was writing. Yup :) writing, but the sad thing is I am not that much good i English hence I can't publish my writings. That's why I basically write privately in my blog. More over why I write just to express myself in words, this is also a prior reason.

I am not cared about somebody reading my blogs and then if he or she can think what ever they may, they are free too. ;) but I like you, why? you gave me few seconds of your life to my words. :)

We all are human angels, we just need to have reasons to love each other.

Life is running and calm too. Sometimes its not that much pleasant and sometimes its so soothing. What would be my life purpose? I don't think so its pre-determined. Its upon me what I want to make my life!

I can choose to have a desire to earn lots and lots of money and then become rich, or I can take another path where money is not that much important though. Its all on me!

But I need to have a dream, I like to feel the emotions and love, passions and compassion. I really like to understand the deeper meaning of spiritualism and meta-physical world. I like psychology, human and living beings behavior and all. I really like to study all those. I feel like I don't have to put extra efforts will catching the patterns and behaviors of other beings. Doing analysis on it. But I can't pursue this as my career as because their is no money in it. I may have satisfaction that I am loving to work but not getting enough currency to support and sustain a prosperous life. I may have to afford for my living, it may happen though.

On the other side, I like to develop too, writing code and implementing logic. This have a nice future if I give effort on it though. I really love to create products and flaunting its usability in front of the real users who need those apps (as I am an Android Developer). I am really trying to catch the knowledge of product life-cycle from the conceptual idea to development and then till the sales and marketing. I really crave for learning all this stuff.

Huge turning

A lot of things has happened in these months.

I left my job the first one on 9th Jan and then went through multiple series of changes like going to Kharagpur IIT event and then making a friend there.
Next week that friend called me up and asked me to accompany him to an event in Kolkata. I went there worked on an idea and vollah, me and Anup did it. We made it.
After few weeks I got a call from the Glocal where that event took place. The guy who called me was the one whom I interacted the most in the event. He asked me that we need some help in android development, on visiting that place he asked me to join the company.

I was shocked and was blank thinking of what to do!! He handed me the offer letter then and there. I was literally very much OMG. I came home showed it to my Parents. They said you may choose what ever you want to do.

It wasn't an IT company but I never wanted to work on project basis. I wanted to work on a product, trying to understand the flow and the product initiation how to do what and all.

But the only thought which kept pushing me behind was that Anup will feel bad that I didn't took him here. I took one whole day and thought and kept on thinking. Finally I decided I will take the job, I never wanted to do any favor on Anup. He is much more skillful and expertise than me, if I ever did any favor then his esteem will be lowered. Along with this thought I know that working there won't be that much comfortable as they are a company and they will ask for a time dependent result and me not so much strong in Android, hence evryday I have to learn and implement on the live product.

I can't bear the cost of loosing a day and not learning. This was the constraint but I took the challenge knowing that I may be asked to leave the company if I didn't worked well.

Realizations in this Entrepreneurial jounrey

There was a time I was thinking that how can I start-up with an idea which will at-least make my future secure. Went to an event last month, made few connections.
Realized by then that I have already tried to make 2 start-ups which was faded away in my closed room, never brought it up in the real world.

This might be the mistake which I have done. Developing a product is simple for me and Anup as we both have worked together always. We are engineers hence its not a big deal to deal with the technology stuff.

The real problem starts when we start to bring it into the market. We then realize that what we have made and thought that it will explode in the market and will be extremely used, is actually a dumb product which we have made but wont work on the market or might be in the Indian market.

No worries but we had a small experience by then at-least.

Now we are trying to make our 3rd start-up, again. This time too we don't know whether it will run in the market or not, but wait, this time there is something which we know now ,that is we can and should modify the value proposition of the product according to the market need then only it is going to be accepted and used in the market.
2nd thing which is really important is, how open is our product, whether it is user friendly and how much hedge it has before a person from a non technical background can comfortably use it.

These are the most vital point which need to be considered !!!!

Losing the essence

There was a day when I searched on Google "How to commit suicide" not just for fun but actually I was overwhelmed by my negative thoughts which was killing me from many days and was occupying my mind completely. This happened in the last semester of my college life.

Things changed slowly and time was mending. I started liking the way my life was turning. Just after my college things were better.

But they didn't lasted for months, I started to think what I am doing here in Kolkata !!!

All my friends were out there in other states, doing their wonderful jobs. I was doing a crappy work here in a small company.
All were experiencing a new life and new stuffs. I am stuck in this bottle. Sometimes I see all laughing at me. I just close my eyes or don't look at.
I don't know what to do? Just run away from this place and live the uncertain life which will be worse, uncertain and unpredictable. I am not feared of bad times but I am scared of living a life which is worthless at the end.
Don't want to take decisions which are stupid but can't breathe in this limited horizon.

:( Dying to Death.