Trying all possible ways to sustain

Well after so many days I am writing again.. my post are haphazard, having no proper structure or flow. The reason is my life is also not so well organized. I am flowing as the way time is making me to. I tried so many things. created company persuaded people joined a job. don't know absolutely what to do, why i am doing and how i m going to live..
I know this much that I wanna live a life in a way that at the end there shouldn't be any regret. I don't wanna waste my time and my life.
Well here is something from my memory docs

On 15^th of June 2013, I and my friend had finally decided to form a firm and work together to bring projects and try to complete them and deliver it on time. We were highly enthusiastic and willing to do a lot and face all the hurdles to overcome the bridge of earning. We went to our 1^st client and had a talk with him very confidently. Someplace we might have become nervous but with time the weakness was defeated by the courage of our heart and we turned up to very normal while talking to him. Though his requirements were huge and were crossing our capabilities but we remain calm as because in past we have already touched some lines which were out of our reach and just because of necessity we had to cross our limits to learn more and develop our skills to accomplish something really difficult. Any way after listening to him we at last said the cost for developing his project. We tried to be very comfortable while talking so that he may feel good.
This was the first day when I learnt how to talk to customer and most importantly at those situation when we have to persuade the customer to pay, these situation are highly different from normal talks with people.

Okay the first day was over and then I was back to my track, the normal way of life. Next day I had to visit another customer who had quiet minimum requirements and thus we were confident as we had been through this situation once. Now this time we were one time experience professionals and talk very formally. But this customer didn't pay that much amount of attention to us. We were not able to grab his attention as I think so or more perfectly we can say that he was no so interested in building up the website. Any way we talked to him and everything went fine.

After two days me and my friend Rishav planned together and went to his school to have a talk with them. Our motto was to persuade them to build their own website and hence we may get some bucks flowing towards us. Though it may be plenty but it may bring showers of strength to us and rotate the wheel of our business initially. But unfortunately we were not so successful to accomplish what we planned for. Rather our meeting with the principal of that school turned out to be a bit improper and I have figured out there reply, which was definitely NO. They actually didn't say like that, or else we would have been insulted then but we were lucky as they replied ‘give me the pamphlet we would inform you if required’ and we left.

We met 3 clients in a week and we were really happy as we started well. We were filled with confidence and enthusiasm. Then after few days we were sandwiched with the hectic responsibilities which we had taken over our head. One was Artwork-4all and second was Security courses, both of these responsibilities took a hell lot of energies from us and we had no energy in us to give time to our newly formed firm. Along with these, we also made a hater which was Softwebs.co.in. It was easily perceptible that he didn't like our idea of forming a company who would operate and provide services in the same field as theirs; this made us the competitor of each other. Let this hatred go to hell, we should focus on our work and business, we are not going to hate any one or be jealous of any person or company. This is not in our nature. So purely think and concentrate on our aims and 100% flawless devotion on our own company.

After all these days I figured out that the difficulty is not crossing the bridge of earning, it’s actually taking the first step to get a project which may bring cash in the firm. The initial steps are really very hard and difficult to cross.

Today is 2^nd July, I went for an interview at Salt Lake which was the second round and disappointingly it was not so good. What so ever it was a 10k salary job, I don’t know whether I will get selected or not. I was not so much comfortable while the interview. Some where I realized that I can’t be good in technical interview. So was I made for MBA or Engineering? WAIT!!! What if these two courses were not designed yet then? What should you say that what are your skills??

A glimpse of yesterday

I use to think that I am a responsible human who can take up responsibilities on his own shoulders and make things happen. Unfortunately I was wrong, I was in an illusion which had led me to think this, sometimes I use to think myself to be a person who is an Entrepreneur, a person who is full of energies and motivation, a person who believe in himself and tries to do something really worthy. I was day dreaming about myself. 

My subjective world

Every person have worries in their mind and in their heart, I have too. I don't call them burden because they all the the portion of my thoughts which I think in a whole day.

Artwork-4all : recently Vishal's dad has asked me and anup that if we all shake hands with each other so that we may help to generate the revenue from the site then it is a good idea for us. We all can work together and if any sort of income starts generating then it will be divided as per the percentage.

Uncertain Investment of my TIME

Me and Anup, we both had been working on this Health Care website and there has been a lot of changes in it since the time we started working on it. The database design has been changed two times and the look and feel of the websites has been changed vastly. We have been giving our asses to this project and working from three months. Data are about to come and then we have to feed it to the website and soon the website is going to live in this month (it is April 2013). Man we have been working out ass out and I should really appreciate Anup as because he was the man who worked really hard and most of the credit goes to him. We both are working on two projects sequentially and giving our days and nights to it, not the night we do sleep ;-) . Now the thing which I want to say is that though we are working so hard but we have not been rewarded for any of these neither verbally nor in money terms. Frankly speaking I am loosing my faith from this Hospital Care website. I really don't know that whether it is really going to earn money or not. Whether people are going to come and visit our website or not I really don't know. What if we don't get any return and the whole project get demised  I will really feel bad about it and loose a bit of my heart.

Distributed Lives

As early in the morning I was talking about human trafficking (I mean where most of the human's attentions are taking place) is happening, that is the exact place to earn the profits, for an example the Facebook. Few days back from today I observed something happening on the Facebook, the incident was something like this, there was a photo of a cute baby girl which was really very sweet, it was uploaded 8 seconds ago and within that fraction of seconds the photo has acquired 46 numbers of likes. It was unbelieveable for me that how such type of trafiic can be generated but it is the reality, people are moving towards online, most of the people are getting online and thus facebook has such a numbers of active users. This trafficking of human being on internet is making the internet one of the valeable element of our life.

How facebook is getting so much users? Right now I am in a flat where college students live and most of the time they are free as because they know studying can be done one day before the exam and actually we all now follow this rule only, hence we get a lot of time during semesters. This whole amount of time need to be passed anyhow. Facebook is one of the free option to them.

Now every one is trying to create a website so that the 225 billion dollar money which has been earned by Bill Gates can be earn by other peoples too. It was his age where software were very important thats why Microsoft the company who use to make softwares and people use to buy them. Now this softwares Microsoft a multi billionair, as because till now the most important thing in the world of technology was the softwares but now as we all know the technology is seeing an advancement which is Cloud Computing is the most vital newly emerging trend which is replacing the softwares very rapidly. The whole market depend on this technology, take PAAS, SAAS, AAAS. If an enterprise is taking the help of any of these technologies then they are surely going to earn millions sometimes billions.

We have to calculate that how much users are going to use an application which is running on the cloud. If it is on the internet that means any one can use it, every people on this planet can use it, though the population of the earth is 7 billion but all of them are not connected to internet, taking Facebook as an example there are 1 billion active users in it, hence they all can access the internet. We are now talking about the market where 1 billion people are actively paying attention. Who needs all of them. If a page is getting 1 million hits per day that means there is really something on that page.

Mesmerized Day

It's 3:00 PM and I have been doing nothing since morning (which means I was not utilizing my time) except thinking some stuffs. Let me clear out my head and write some of my thoughts..

1. What if I am going to die soon ?

2. I really need to do something like make a startup...!!

3. Will I be able to form a nice legacy in my life? Will I be able to help people and contribute to mankind ?

4. How should I utilize my time in a perfect manner so that my future would be good !!

I really need to elaborate each of these points or else there might be some untold or undiscovered thoughts which will keep on poking my head all the time.

What if I am going to die soon lets say within 1 years.. Ohhh myyyy GOD!!! I would really panic, oh yes I will but why?? It's because I don't want to die, I want to live on this earth, but if this would be true that I am going to die soon, I would really regret about something that though I lived so many years but I was not able to satisfy my soul, was not able to fulfil the purpose of my life. I was not able to give a reason to myself so that while dying I might be happy and would love to leave this world, would say goodbye to everyone happily.

I really need to do something like a startup... Yes I really want to be an Entrepreneur, I want to feel every moment of a rising company right from the day of its formation. For me a company or an enterprise is like a life which take a birth one day and slowly and steadily grows up. I really want to be a person who

"Many times the value of a sentence is not measured by its grammar but by its meaning."

from Ideas to Startup

Many kids have a dream in their childhood days that they want to be something when they are grown up. They dream something or anything without any hesitance. We on looking at their dreams ( if the dreams are not possible according to us) then we simply tell that they don't know the real world that's why they can dream like this. Later when the time goes on when we become old and they are young then the real game changers are those kids who had dreams in their eyes and had the courage to fulfill it.

We the grown up don't see that according to the time the whole world is changing but we are not realizing it. Then who are the ones who can feel it? The change!!! Some one might be feeling it, Who are they? why aren't we in that category? We keep on asking to ourselves that why we are not the Game changers, the one who are really changing the world.

Human race has seen a lot of ages (Iron age, Information age, etc). We all are changing with time, but recently there had been a lot of change in this world. Things have became very advanced and technology had became the real hero (power also). Now answering the question that who are the game changers? the answer can be simply figured out which is, the person who are really taking part in these changes, the person who are trying to change something are going to become the game changers. Let stretch up ourselves and conclude that who are these game changers, basically they are the Entrepreneurs.