The Peaceful Castle

"This story is about a young immature boy [young because he needs to learn a lot, immature because he commits mistakes, mistakes which are irreversible]. So now this boy who owns a land, owns a lady (who is a princess for him), owns a castle of mirrors [there is a reason why it's of mirrors]. The story is all about happiness, joy, loss and finding peace."

You tried to build a castle
A castle of mirrors
A castle of memories and emotions

Yes you wanted to have that beautiful fort to keep a princess
The princess which you have earned in this life
You wanted to live this life with her

Castle has to be as beautiful as she is,
(being beautiful is not only external but internal as well)
Or else it won't be comfortable for her, isn't it?
That castle has to be of mirrors,
Transparent and flawless.

You were there, about to finish the castle.
You were there when it was about to complete.
You made sure it gets completed.

Then!

Unspoken words,
Unspoken events,
Unspoken deeds.

You were there only,
but not the castle.

It was gone, gone forever.
You saw it going, you saw it disappearing.
It's somewhere where you don't know and can't know as well.

Ohhh, then you thought about the princess you had, yes now you had.
She is not there anymore.
You lost it, lost it in the chaos, the chaos and the tornado created by your own hands.

After all this while, when you were putting so much to build the castle,
you didn't realize that you are not capable of having that princess.
It made you void, it made me numb.

It was no more, there was nothing.
Now there is no winds blowing, no birds chirping.
Sun doesn't rises, moon doesn't glow.
It's just a plan simple barren land and blue sky with me.

I am stuck in this long large land,
It's not dark, there is pale blue light all over.
I can see myself that I am alive.
But all the dreams of the castle and green grassy lands are gone.
Nothing left.
Only the dreamt imaginations and failed wishes.

Is this called a loss or emptiness,
Atleast there is one satisfaction in heart that the princess will be happy somewhere and the castle will be standing somewhere.
Though those are not with me, but it is somewhere.

This fact gives me peace.
This fact gives me completeness.

Poetry #1

You dreamt of a train,
You dreamt of a train.

The only train, you wished to be on.
The train which you thought will take you to the destiny.

You dreamt of that train,
You dreamt of that train.

You planned how you will travel,
You imagined how it will look like from the windows.

You saw yourself being in it,
You smiled when you were crossing mountains and the terranean.

You touched the glass there was the rain,
You saw the rainbow coming out of the clouds.

Green fields and paddy grounds,
All crossed by saying you good bye.

You dreamt of that train,
You dreamt of the paths which were passing by.

All this you saw in your dreams,
So, that you wake up and make it real.

When the morning light came up,
You rushed to the station,
Catching your breathe,
You flashed through the roads.

On reaching there, you saw the train.
It already left, it was already far away.

You dreamt of this train which was already gone!
All the memories and the dreams were shouting in your brain.

You dreamt of this train,
Which you can't catch it again.

You have to see it passing away,
but still you dreamt of this train.

Tears rolled down through the eyes,
It was still raining outside.
Looking the dream pass by,
Thinking,
How will I sleep again and dream again.

Am I distracted or not paying attention

There are different channels on YouTube with lots of suggestion coming up on my home screen, I might not want to watch them but I am trapped in those suggestion. There are movies, serials, and now malls with glossy display to lure my attention. There are too many apps or solution to solve the problem which I face. 

When ever I try to download an app, at the very moment there are tones of suggested apps which are asking me to download them as well. Do I even know that I don't need to click on the suggested apps? They are just there to keep gulping my time which I spend on a certain online platform.

Somewhere I feel, "The larger part of my life is connected to internet and electronic devices, including this blog posting, rather than to nature."

 

All this which is around me is mostly man-made and I fell we creatures are worst in creation. Look at what we have been creating so far, the output of each innovation generates a new problem statement to be solved.

 

Okay, coming back to normal, there was a time when I liked to watch movies and serials, I use to do movie/ serial marathon, but today? 

I don't like it anymore. 

I have become very much selective now.

 

I use to get effected by those false creation/ dream sellers whose content were no were related to real world scenarios, though I was enjoying it. 

 

I see people love to go to a movie hall to entertain themselves by hooking their mind into a false reality on the screen rather than going to a park with their family and feel the grass and air, even I use to do so and still learning how things are getting different and we are loosing the true essence of our being. 

Malls and movie halls are much cleaner than parks, we cannot throw a piece of thrash anywhere in mall but can dump it in a green ground which was crafted by mother earth just for us, expecting that she will take care of it and later we claim it to be dirty and opt out to not go there.

We came from cellphone to green gardens in this post, isn't it, huge different?

 

Anyway, putting all this aside, I talked about myself, something for you, when was the last time you touched a leaf of a plant with your touch-screen based fingers?