There was a day when I searched on Google "How to commit suicide" not just for fun but actually I was overwhelmed by my negative thoughts which was killing me from many days and was occupying my mind completely. This happened in the last semester of my college life.
Things changed slowly and time was mending. I started liking the way my life was turning. Just after my college things were better.
But they didn't lasted for months, I started to think what I am doing here in Kolkata !!!
All my friends were out there in other states, doing their wonderful jobs. I was doing a crappy work here in a small company.
All were experiencing a new life and new stuffs. I am stuck in this bottle. Sometimes I see all laughing at me. I just close my eyes or don't look at.
I don't know what to do? Just run away from this place and live the uncertain life which will be worse, uncertain and unpredictable. I am not feared of bad times but I am scared of living a life which is worthless at the end.
Don't want to take decisions which are stupid but can't breathe in this limited horizon.
:( Dying to Death.
Things changed slowly and time was mending. I started liking the way my life was turning. Just after my college things were better.
But they didn't lasted for months, I started to think what I am doing here in Kolkata !!!
All my friends were out there in other states, doing their wonderful jobs. I was doing a crappy work here in a small company.
All were experiencing a new life and new stuffs. I am stuck in this bottle. Sometimes I see all laughing at me. I just close my eyes or don't look at.
I don't know what to do? Just run away from this place and live the uncertain life which will be worse, uncertain and unpredictable. I am not feared of bad times but I am scared of living a life which is worthless at the end.
Don't want to take decisions which are stupid but can't breathe in this limited horizon.
:( Dying to Death.
